Corrections and clarifications

• This blog was founded on August 23rd, 2010.  Just over a month before the Christchurch/Canterbury earthquake.  Since then, I have given you, to the best of my writing ability, out loud thoughts about this world we live in now, 9/11, the war on terrorism, media, Osama Bin Laden, Christianity, god... and also myself that has,  I believe, an association with all of the subjects above.  So, then, the two severe earthquakes (the latest on February 22nd) were not a coincidence, in my mind.  They were both a cruel exercise of power by, I repeat, the new world order kings, that who, aren't a group of Slovakian teenage pornographers by, once again, being used as an American scapegoat.  I am not dumb, I am quite smart.  I could be wiser, but thanks to the mind-numbing going over by christian new world order leaders, that isn't true.
• I have a mental illness.  I am a very sick man.  Still, that doesn't change the fact that this world has changed.  It isn't about capitalism versus communism!  It is about good versus evil!  The ultimate elite of this world, mainly in the United States of America, are a long, long list of them that work for something else and will continue to do so.  I am satisfying myself and whoever might be reading by pointing that out!  I am not a Rupert Murdoch loving Christian new world order righteous mob insider.  Get fucked.
• I accept I could improve my writing more.  These works are informal pieces that belong right here.  To think otherwise is well, wrong.
• Again, I appeal to leave comments and become a 'follower'.  We can communicate better that way.
• My text below my blog title appears to have a glitch.  The code has put in four or five breaks (/br) automatically without me telling the computer to do so.  The blog looks unusual that way because there is just a big empty space there.

Nothing to write about...

Okay, so I lied.  I will be writing about something, or typing, about something.

"Big Fat Bass"?  Featuring will.i.am?  That has to be the stupidest title for a song I know.  Britney Spears is releasing her seventh album, everybody.  I can't believe this coming album will be her seventh.  Are we missing something?

Well, that's it.  A break away from the norm.

Nothing to write about...

I hope this doesn't become a habit, just punching in entries without writing them down like I usually do.  When I write what I want to put up here down, I find I can express myself better and because I don't own my own computer anymore, I'm on a time limit on public access computers so writing down my entries gives me all the time in the world to say what I want to say.

I was thinking last night, I haven't given you much information about myself.  My profile is mainly blank.  All I will say is I am not the former Royal Canadian Airforce official who was fired and disgraced after he was found out to be entering civilian homes in the dead of night and in one incident (or the few of them), cross-dressing by trying on teenage girls swimsuits.  I say again, I am not that man.  I mean, that is unusual.  I wonder if airforce life changes you?  Maybe its just a Royal Canadian Airforce thing.  Those queers...  Hahaha...

I have thought about putting up a photo of myself but I probably won't.  I don't know.

Hacked?

I haven't written down this entry this time but I think this blog has been hacked as it is missing one entry that I was looking for to read over.

Interesting, because in that post it revealed how I had a wet dream with former president George W. Bush in it.  Nothing really sexual in the dream, for your information.

What is also interesting is that I have been changing the passwords to this blog regularly but still, someone has found their way in.  That is providing they got in before a certain time when I was doing that.

And, late last night, someone came into my parents house where I was sleeping and held what I suspect was a weapon up against my testicles!

Probably some angry loner that has a grudge against me... on the quiet.  Oops!  Did I just say that?

Personal experience

I have never been a fan of clubs or something else we call them here, pubs.  I raised myself throughout most of my teenage years to think my idea of a good time was jpeg after jpeg of different varieties of pornography.  And so, that is what happened.  The accumulation must be over one hundred thousand images?  Unbelievably, I doubt it is really that much.  I didn't pay a cent for it all, but it wasn't as if I was on WAREZ sites recording login details to premium sites.  In the end, it was all free and held no obligation to pay.

The fun really ended in 2003 when my personal computer was taken off me and locked up (with lock and chain) in a wardrobe.  Looking at the big picture (no pun intended), it is part of the American way of life.  As the Internet, is an American invention.  But that way of life (that I am tempted to return to) only has bearing when outsiders come in and want to change it.  When they think that is wrong.

Since 2003, that is what I must be paying for.  My past obsession,  I have asked myself in 2010 and 2011 - is it something I should accept?  In this changed world we live in, that is nearing toward what I suspect will be a theocracy, you need to be some nobody in Casper Wyoming to have a chance in hell of getting away with it.  In my isolated case, it is because of unknown outsiders that practice some kind of voodoo, it creates a problem.  Unless I want to be arrested and charged with some sexual offence, after some blonde Paris Hilton fan accuses me of rape, I think not.  I think I know better than that.  I need help and like the anti-psychotics, that help will change me.  Blame, I believe, shouldn't lay at the doormat of what I have done.  I actually think that because of others I am this way.  Just pointing the finger at pornography use is so obvious, but they are the same people who don't want to take, if not complete responsibility, part of it.  They want to wash their hands clean.

You, the reader, can go back through the archive and try to piece together the puzzle.  Because I'm not going to, today, probably go over it again.  In addition, there are things that haven't been said that have nothing to do with mainly what this entry is about.  They could be left for another time.

I already have to deal with public embarrassment and such.  It is worse when you don't really know why you have to when even without all the sex, you would have been a nothing anyway.  I regret being taken on a reputation ride (by I know who) to make or break me in every aspect of my being.

I guess old habits do die hard.  Thanks television.  Or you people from FOX.  Whoever paid generously the actress to say that.

Clothing

I thought I could buy some new clothes because I feel tired about the clothes I have.  I own five hoodies (that I wear one each day), five plain coloured shirts, two pairs of skinny jeans.  I mean, thats my wardrobe.  Everything else, besides my Sonic the Hedgehog shirt, I don't really like and could do with a change.

What I will ask you is, what are some nice clothes to wear?  You are in control.

Outlaws of the clique

There is no stopping the new world order outlaws.  Their clique, a small exclusive group, with the overseeing of the president - has this world in their grip.

They think they are the highest of integrity.  We don't need these righteous power hungry gangster leaders leading us.

They are suppost to be gods chosen few that will claim, through religiously motivated media, their place in this world to become the new world order.

[Note:  Blogger wouldn't allow me to make image smaller.]

The above is undisputable evidence of an evolving new world order that has an anything goes attitude.  What will be the next step of their world domination?

Anti-war

Now that the war on terrorism has shifted up another gear, does the anti-war movement (and they generally always are American and left wing) still feel they are exactly that?  I find it interesting that during the naughties they were there, but hard to find in television headlines, Internet media and so on, but even though they had made a presence felt, it was an underwhelming one.

Are the anti-war protesters more anti-violence now.  As in, it isn't so much about war but more specifically, violence?

Do they still feel they have a place, a cause to back?  How do they feel now, still a vocal minority, against this new war president, Barack Obama?

Will they rise again?

Christian crusader w.

"You are either with us, or against us."

"We're not fighting Islam, we're fighting evil!"

"They had rape rooms..."

Referring to Saddam Hussein's dictatorship

"Tell Tony Blair we're not going in to Iraq!  Tell Tony Blair we're not going in to Iraq!"

Christian crusader W. throws a wobbly over Iraq during a presidential debate

"The war on terror will end at a date and time of our choosing."

"You know, we want to harm America."

An unusual comment that happened on more than one occasion which both, I think served nothing more than psychological warfare

"Our enemies are tactical and resourceful, and so are we.  Our enemies never stop looking for new ways to harm America, and neither do we."

"Obviously, I pray every day theres less casualty."

I don't quite get how that should be obvious

Those are quotes that shouldn't be taken lightly.  I can't understand that during the brunt of both wars, the anti-war left were so vocal and now, well... something has changed.

You might understand better now where I'm coming from.  My points of view.

On a footnote, Bush being made out to be some kind of "mangler-in-chief", in my opinion, could have been exaggerated.  Along with that, the popularity numbers could have been just made up to give the American people and the rest of the world, the impression, he was such a bad president.  I say that because I sense his approval was actually much higher.

Libya is going to be liberated! Onward!

Nothing to write about

Except the bus timetables.  Can't the city council get the bus timetables right?  What they're doing is giving a couple of weeks to what seems to me as testing different times (as they are changing again next week), and those who aren't in the know with the timetables on the phone are left out in the cold!

Maybe I'm only bitching about it because it did cause an inconvenience for me this morning.  I think that's probably why.

A message to the president

I know you are untouchable.  I have had to suffer eight years of your communist socialist rule that you wage here from above with your orbiting wares.  Its time to put down the bong and end the madness.

No one has ever been held accountable for the murders of my family.  If they hadn't of died, I might be a little wiser.  Am I blaming you, Mr. President, for them?  No.  As far as you are concerned, the socialist conspiracy should stop.  Why does it have to continue other than to mess with me and hurt me?

I don't think your government just seeks people out at random then attempts to murder them each day.  This goes back, way back.

In critique of your politics, I don't think you will ever bring the "change" (whatever that was suppost to mean) within your government.  Because you, Mr. President, are one of them.  So I, for one, won't be counting on it.

Signed,

Your number #1 fan

United we stand

What do I believe?  I believe that 9/11 was an inside job or if not that, had forewarning and was allowed to happen because of a religious motivation.

In 2011, conspiracy discussions are still chattering about the event (thanks to the Internet) and the man responsible, who we believe, is I believe, probably dead (with the C.I.A. withholding the information) or never existed even before that traumatising day.

The flip side is this.  I think the righteous believe the day "everything changed" was justified.  Everything above is true and what they believe too.  But as for the consequence of hunting down Osama Bin Laden and Al-Qaeda, its some kind of trick.  If I am confusing myself, or you, the reader, putting it simply, if you aren't on the inside of the church circles, you are a fool.

Furthermore, there is at least something more behind September 11th, 2001 that could be inclusion of a political agenda, an organised crime agenda, a religious agenda or all three.  That is why I said that people like George Bush ecetera have "zero credibility" because they are all working for something else.  Though on the face of it, say different.

Where do I come in to all of this?  It is a low down trick in itself for those rich and powerful elitist super giants to now say what happened in my life has no relevance, because it actually does.  It is a conspiracy.  Just some big conspiracy that is attempted to be covered up to make me look like the evil.  Well sorry, it shouldn't work like that for your convenience.

Important of all, I am one of the victims.  What I suspect will happen is the new world order evolution will continue but hey, if the righteous conspiracy ends and the coincidental significance of K taken away, I think I'll get over it and be happy as Larry.

I have been taught the ways of christian tyranny and that is obvious to me by what I know.  There is still confusion and yes, I know I am fighting a losing battle.

Its now about good versus evil.

David and goliath

To make Gaddafi feel better, he could take comfort from that story of the bible.  The same book that is also full of righteous violence.

I think we've been had.  Is this the change Americans believed in?  If the 2008 campaign wasn't about change in mainly the war on terrorism, what was the word change referring to?  Wait, I get it, it was to do with the secret socialist agenda (that Bush started) and Obama has carried on.  McCain would have done the same if he had of won office, I bet.

Barack Hussein Obama, a socialist, that believes in not affirmative action but conspiracy, torture and murder of the unlucky ones who get in his way.  Between me and Barack, if that is your real name, you are my tyrant.  And god.  Oh, and Bush.  Probably even Clinton as well.  Hell, don't forget Bush Snr. and Regan.

I feel threatened now because I have been taught since age seventeen to be cautious of Obama and his socialist secret police.  If the conspiracy stopped, as in today, then I would feel normality overcome my being instantly.

But, it probably won't.

Funny, because Gaddafi must know he is toast without a helpful counteractive strategy.  This could get interesting in the end.  Funny, because if I was him, I would board a plane or what Kim Jong Ill always does, a train, when he wants to get somewhere, and in a hurry.  And, in this situation, a place of refuge.

The goodwill and democracy mission is continuing!  Obama is a Bush in sheep's clothing!

War... what is it good for?

President Barack Obama could be guilty of flip-flopping, a term given to mainly politicians that say or do one thing, but the opposite later on.

I say this because he voted against the Iraq war as a junior senator, however has taken him since 2009 to wind down the effort there.  That means he has obviously changed his mind since he was inaugurated then become president by doing what he has done, by not ending the war as soon as his vote back then had also would have suggested.

I don't know of any major betrayals in world political history, do you?  It has somewhat happened here.  The current government organised a vote to find out how many of the population were for or against smacking their children as part of, as a right wing lobby group put it,"good parental correction".  The overwhelming result was eighty percent for repealing the "anti-smacking" law and the remaining twenty against.

The government ignored the peoples decision after a reported eight million dollar taxpayer expenditure and the vote being held up and down the country.  In New Zealand, that is an example of what I am talking about.  And why I could not be voting for that party come this election this year.  It is so typical of the right to do that anyway and can tie in with other topics on this blog bringing a better understanding.

Politics is like an ongoing game.  There are winners, there are losers.  Before one has been decided, that is when the gameplay happens.  They're not trying to kill each other, though.  They all want to bring change about for their people.  There have been few that haven't.

The scene me and you are witnessing on the world stage, of the war on terrorism, is one that can be likened to events of the eighteenth century because of the enormity of change.  The conquering.

Until next time, because I think I have cocaine in my system.

An explanatory apology

Firstly, a note.  I wrote everything I had wanted to enter for this entry on paper like I usually do and put it in my back pocket.  However, somehow I have lost that piece of paper.

In my last one or two entries, I blast pot, weed, marijuana or otherwise known as cannabis as dangerous to perception of reality.  Well, I don't think I am too far off the mark.  What I will apologise for, is my shallow and offensive attack on the substance.

Besides the point.  Everything else on this blog can be considered informative, insightful, thought provoking and if nothing else, honest about what ever I decide to post up here.

The fucking over of this world

Forget about being articulate in my titles for once and this is something I have known for a long time.

Time has changed.  You only have to watch E.T., a Hollywood movie about an alien that lives with an American family, to know that evidence of the christian new world order tyranny has gone back as far as the early eighties, when E.T. was filmed.

How interesting, considering the movie industry, Hollywood, has an organised crime influence.  I think what has happened could be called a form of terrorism.  It is also the types who destroy the twin towers, attack the Pentagon but not only that, are responsible for the mass-murder that is waged from above.  They blame me on one front, but a rebel Arab on the other.

Please, because of the American conspiracy persecution, it isn't easy.  I must be in control of myself.  The damage has been done.

I might be mentally unwell but my illness could also just be some kind of artificial intelligence.  I have thought I could have a computer in my brain.

I stress, this world has changed.  Don't be fooled by past and present media representation of our, your leaders (Michael Bloomberg, Barack Obama etc...).  Their credibility is zero and soon, the possibility is that they could prove me wrong as part of their war against me.  Their power allows them to already.  I think they will do whatever it takes to win.

Personal experience

When I was young, in my early teens, I had wanted to be pretty much one thing, an international spy.  I got the term from I believe to be the best selling computer game of all time, The Sims.  But, that will remain to be the dream.  I did apply for Mossad, the Israeli intelligence service, but like all the other employers, they didn't want me.  Now?  I don't have to work but it is something I would still like to do given that.  I would be doing it for the money, but other factors would play too after time.

It is the kind of schizo idealist personality disorder bullshit that christian crusaders such as Barack Obama have a belief in.  To be frank, because it must be all the dope they smoke that changes their view about the way of this world.  When combined with a high degree of power, it is dangerous and a problem.

As for me, given my interest in pornography and sex (that cannabis must change view as well in some) I am a dickhead.  Not necessarily.  It is Christianity that works against me in my liberalism of sex.  The fact of the matter is, it was an American invention called the Internet that has done that.  Okay?  So how do I feel about that?  It is something I am struggling to accept.  Plus, if anyone doesn't like it, I might tell them to be damned.  If it is really about people, then I should have the exclusion.  I did leave high school to fall in to an obsession with adult content but even at sixteen, I actually left because of new world order oppression.

Carrying on with my brutal honesty, on the other hand I can feel awkward about it.  But, the reason why could be because of a technological godly illusion planted in my heart.

Sex... it can fall in to many beliefs.  The most fitting being atheism.  And, regardless of which, have different laws that sometimes have to be abide by.

This blog

I asked myself recently, am I going over the same topics with different wording?  Well, I probably am.  But that doesn't mean there hasn't been a chance to bring up anything new.

I think in doing this I have let off steam, especially in August and September of last year when this blog was founded.  Then after those two months, I just almost lost all motivation to carry on the way I had been.  Also, I don't know anyone.  I live by myself and I have seen and experienced so much that I believe, could be part of the different world we live in now.  The evolution is not over.  I guess I had to express myself and Blogger has allowed me to do that.

Mistakes, the very few, have been made.  My confidence in this work is shaky and the little reaction I have received, has been negative.  The important thing is, do I believe in myself?  Yes.  However, have I betrayed myself?  Yes.  My demise has been gruelling and I know there are ways out.  Despite that, I have continued and my foresight tells me I will do so again.  I am happy that I didn't almost make one or two mistakes and still, I remain glad.

It isn't as if I have made all this stuff up by pulling it out of my ass.  I have been called a simpleton, told I will "go to hell", told I have no rights, told "I'm so full of shit" I can no longer walk.  People like me are in trouble.  This world has changed.

The likely truth is, appropriately, in the beginning.  It is their loss they helped me in that way.

What now?  I have thought about starting a new blog as a porn blog.  I have been viewing pornography since age thirteen.  Then for four or five years, in 2004, I went suddenly abstinent after I had a wet dream that I met former president George W. Bush.  Later on, I began drinking energy drinks because I was feeling so tired working forty hour weeks and that was because of the christian oppression.  It wasn't long until I was back full swing.  I should have known not to drink a can all at once but I didn't know any better.

From philosophy to myself to soon possibly adult content.  I might have to buy my own personal computer to do that.  Its a possibility.  The thought crossed my mind months ago.

Coming theocracy

I miss the time, that is often called the pre-911 world, when there seemed to be more sanity in the world we lived in.

For me, but also for the people in the world around me.

I don't enter here what I want to see, because the merging of church and state will be a theocracy or a nation under god.  I might not want that, but I know I'm in a minority.  The reality is, what I'm talking about is only one sure step away.  Then, when I'm offline, when I reflect on my entries, I might have to accept that I might eventually be wrong.  Still, I believe it will take politicians with the religious conviction and a majority of support and votes to get them in power to bring about such a government on their christian platform.

I imagine it would be a dictatorship as the word of god would be the law.  God would be the dictator.  The christian new world order kings would become a panel that makes decisions either themselves or on the promised land believers behalf.  When I think about it, it could go either way.  Though, my eyes are open to what I see here and now.  Do you see what I see with my own two eyes?

I know I am fighting a losing battle.  The way I see it, I consider myself a victim of a government conspiracy.  It is how this began, in the late eighties, then as time went on, that is how it continued.

Alternative discussions about Freemason and Zionist agendas ecetera could hold water.  That's how I describe credibility.  What I have described is an official nation under god.  Currently, it is that, but wanting to break out of its skin.

Autumn

In the United States, at least, autumn is called fall.  I am aware too that I somehow mis-spelt "dis-honor" when I should have spelt it, dis-honour, in New Zealand English.  Not American English.

I found a blog somewhat randomised for me about Malaysia.  I had little idea that Malaysia has some kind of dictatorship problem as the blog came to my attention with the revolts in Egypt and Lybia as inspiration.

What got me though was the author of his blog entitled Hiro blog used pornography to explain the problem with their government.  I submitted a comment telling him I was offended with this "Orwellian doublespeak".  I also accused him of not really being Malaysian, thus, an imposter.

He removed my attack of words within twenty four hours.

I have decided to not go back to see how else this (who I suspect is an American) was going to spin his countries problems onto me.  Yes, me.  I mean, as some kind of example.

Then, there you have it.  Its like capitalism or probably, almost anything else.  It isn't as if, using capitalism as my own example, that it was due to some kind of idealist working class hero like John Lennon put it.  The truth is, others are really responsible in history.  It can be also like September 11th, 2001.  The United States government chooses to use a scapegoat named Osama Bin Laden to perpetrate an attack that could have been done from the inside, along with the unforgettable crimes that moreso grew from that pivotal day.  However, like I have said, to take away significance from the day that everything changed, I know the mass-murder continued long before.

The United States of American has their finger on the pulse of this world as a superpower.  I already know, it is how they do things.

The righteous

It defies reason, righteousness.  There is just no question, for all followers of god consider themselves right.  If one was to convert, like me, for instance, then I would have to deem myself one of them as the righteous.

Excuse me, it is not easy being a broken beaten slave of the new religion campaign.  I must be in control.

It is written that God created the universe and the universe has everything inside of it.  That is why the arrogant righteousness of Christians is so, because they believe that their god created everything.

We need to be aware of rich and powerful men and women who play god with our lives and with the world we live in.  Barack Obama, George Bush Jnr., Bill Clinton, George Bush Snr., Rupert Murdoch... just a few of the well known elite at the maximum end of the elitist scale.  They are all part of the new religion agenda.  They all have one thing in common - they're American.

Oh well, they all consider themselves the righteous and have the inside scoop about this world.  It sickens me that with their supposedly firm belief in their father, it wavers.

Pen mightier than sword

That's what they say.  But I can dis-honor that sometimes out of forceful rage that I know once, have let it made known to you, the reader, and set out to punish those who I strongly suspect are responsible.  They have themselves to blame, once again.  Really, they do.  Because without them, there would be almost no problem.  What do I believe?  Thanks to the brainwashing of christian tyranny, I don't know.

I know this.  In the end, it comes back home to a new world order.  A, new, world, order.  Despite what their loyalists say, aiming to cast doubt, confuse with their psychological warfare.  I think it must have been all said before by now.  Lies, more and more American lies with some kind of queerness shadowing them all.

It was the Gulf war that made the Timothy McVeighs of this world.  It is another American thing (to put it lightly) that has made me.  And why?  Unnecessary perhaps?

I know who my friends are and there are none to speak of.

I have been thinking, I must have covered everything by now.  Its about a conspiracy.  Its about a new world order.  Its about an agenda.  I know it, Christians, catholics, Jews, Freemasons and Muslims know it regardless of what they do.  Everything changed after 9/11.  It was the official beginning of the revolution.  I thought this world worked differently, I guess I was wrong.

The lie

There have been many lies told by word of mouth but by my title I am not saying there is only one.  In my life though, there is, the lie.

Should I be thanking god for my life?  Really?  I was raised to believe that through work, saving and investment, it is thanks to those principles of capitalism that has made me.  When people tell me I should be thanking god for something?  He really doesn't deserve or shouldn't actually receive any gratitude.  On Christianity, I just can't believe in that respect Christians feel they should thank their creator for that.  How did they find god?

Frankly, part of Christianity is a lie.  Just some big charade.  Something that should be in a Hollywood film.

Nemesis of god

With each passing day, these christian western nations are getting closer to the theocracy that will take over the word of law with the word of god.

You, the reader, were probably expecting a dedicated entry on the crime against humanity in Christchurch, New Zealand.  All I will say is the non-believers had their human rights.  Shelter, food, water, ecetera... but I am not the one who said they shouldn't have.  The new world order had vaguely shone through in media coverage of the aftermath crisis.

Yes, I remain on the outside.  The true believers on the inside should be reminded as to why they are so exclusive.  When you have the most powerful man in the world encouraging you to believe in this gangster of a god, along with the presidents access to government secrets, that, he said himself will no longer be and become more "transparent", that is why they are so special.  They have been made important by the mafia state of the United States of American as a new world order.  That could replace completely the current prime ministers and presidents of this dying world.

I want to express my frustration against what I call, the nemesis of god.  For god is a nemesis.  Right here and now I will go so far to say he is a tyrant like the deposed Saddam Hussein of an Iraq, today occupied by Pax Americana.

Sadly for me, it could be too late.  But I can feel proud knowing I am the underdog as a victim of an American conspiracy that started in 1989.

Framed

Over the years I have developed a hate for people generally because of the hate that has been shown toward me.

The Americans.  What can I say?  Their country is a mafia state like Russia is, the only likely difference is that it isn't as in your face there as it is in still that fallen giant.

How do I put this?  The Americans are obviously shifting the blame by using a terrorist boogieman Osama Bin Laden as an excuse to do what they do.  But hey, its okay because it is good?  They have themselves to blame.  Especially when it is terror against their own people?

Then they make themselves out to be saviours of humanity.  No, I am not a tyrant, I don't have control of any weapons of mass destruction that they said Iraq had but was really who I suspect them all along.  I want my life back.  When will I get back my life?  And there is still an association between my life and the government?  Believe it.

Perhaps I should have stayed quiet.  If this has contributed to my demise then it may not have been my fault.  I know I'm tired of this life I am forced to lead.  My lifestyle is important to me but to probably survive, I have to change.  Well, I probably never will and can't anyway.