Synthetic cannabis in New Zealand

Why have our leaders failed to recognise unwell people with disorders as those who need these experimental drugs in their day to day lives to actually live.  These are people who could be considering euthanasia, another controversial topic in this country.

I also lay the blame of failing to lead at the door of the media but especially the legalise cannabis supporters who should have been out there representing us.

I never thought I needed alternative medicine until it actually happened to me.

Now it might seem the government is also having input in to not the sale, but the ingredients of the drugs, I have been feeling rather tired.  There is only one of them out there that actually make your veins go black and puts you to sleep, it is almost like a suicide pill, I remained weary of that number.

Tai High Code Red is a living room and bedroom drug and I actually did that the most.  Kryptonite is actually very strong but the packaging is messed up and you can easily fumble and sprinkle the weed all over your floor.

These drugs have always known to be pretty harmless.  Heroin is essentially morphine but a stronger type and I have actually done psychoactive drugs via needle before regularly.  I suppose I would do heroin, but you can overdose so know your limits.  Rest in peace Corey Monteith, we hardly knew ye.

A few things...

Wow.  So on August 23rd will be the three year anniversary now of my blog, wowee.

I had dreamed my blog would reach such a milestone given time.  I am weary about giving away too much information because it can be used against me, however I am convinced that even if I were to go completely underground it would do little good out there actually.

So me and Greta have been together almost eight months now, wow.  We got together right on the beginning of the year, I don't think there can be a better time to start a relationship, we met at Christmas time 2012.  Greta is kind of my second love, only my second, my first was an American actually and she has a profile on the Internet with her picture, she is also Jewish.  But then, we can go back even further I suppose if we were to count my very first, she has such a sweet name too, it is very a nice name, her name was Naomi.

We consider what we have together as a relationship but she goes with other men I just wish she would tell me a bit more about these things but I don't feel as if I have to get even with her.  Okay, maybe I do.  But I still can't, I have some difficulty in the first instance because I feel heartbroken if I were to be with another woman I would feel bad about it and it would be out of anger really anyway and that is not how love should be.  Love should be purely well, based on affection.  She has been with many, many men while we have been together and I have only been with two others, only two, laugh out loud.

We could take off down to the central North Island to be in the snow.  I haven't been in the snow before, so that will be a new experience.

She cares for me if nothing else, I need care.  I have no one else to rely on because me and my parents always, and I mean always, fight, I don't know my sisters, I don't know my children, I don't know my extended family.

The president of the United States is void.

I have been listening to a lot of Death Cab For Cutie and no they do not have a new album out.

I thought I would probably be dead by now but I'm still here.  I was abused by rich and powerful men from overseas, Christian homosexuals and Christian pedophiles, from a young age, it is really quite disgusting.  What is even more disgusting is they aren't being held accountable in any way and I just get all the blame or flak, in other words, I have to bite the bullet.

Well, I don't know what more to say.  This blog on second thought probably won't become a dedicated travel blog, I just can't travel the way I am because people out there want to hurt me and my partner.  I mean maybe a few days but I don't know, I feel uneasy about it.

I have been drinking a lot to help relieve my chronic pain and I drank so much last night I was paralyzed and thought I was going to die.

So be safe so me and Greta are wishing you well.

Synthetic cannibis: the end of an era, for now

Synthetic marijuana is now illegal in New Zealand until these producers can prove to the government their products are safe for people to use in our society.

I haven't done them all, but I have done the supposed strongest.  With my chronic-pain it helps immensely so I just would have liked the government to have recognised those like us who need these experimental drugs to help with our severe pain.

If these drugs weren't safe how come I was able to break every rule in the book to do with them and still be all here?  I drank high-percentage alcoholic wine, by the bottle, I took anti-psychotic medication, I drank beer, I mixed synthetics together, I was rolling up really fat joints, I would be smoking non-stop because I just couldn't get enough of the pain-free feeling I was feeling with it inside of me.

I would even smoke, drink bourbon and cola, then take a pill, all at the same time.

I think the government should have continued to allow them to be sold and have these producers prove while they are they should stay on.

Thank god for google

Because it has reminded me to write my blog entry of that I will not put off any longer from now.

People can be really annoying some times, even the people I love can be annoying too but we get over that.

I actually still have most of this blog written down in text books when I was in heated delusional rages and merely significant delusions.  Well, about this time ten years ago I did think I was Jesus Christ then I went on to reveal that to a social worker a year later after the fact.

Oh, Greta, please be with me and make love with me.

Before my mid-life crisis...

I have decided.

My thirties are going to be the best years of my life, I am currently twenty seven.  Kurt Cobain, who is recognised in the same vein as Lennon and Jackson and so on, died at my age of suicide.  He also used drugs, did Kurt.  But I just felt troubled because I thought because he died at twenty seven like Janis Joplin and a few others, I thought it was a sign I should stand up and take notice of.  I thought, maybe I was destined to join the twenty seven club with them but six months through and I am still here.

I have a girlfriend now, she is wonderful.

In six months we have only had two little fights, that is remarkable because I think many other couples struggle so much when they first get together.

I want to buy a new house for each of us somewhere far away from here, maybe in the mainland of the South Island.  There they are so cheap or in another word, affordable.  Like a character home, I like character homes.  Character homes are wood, they aren't art deco homes.  Art deco homes can be found in Napier after the earthquake in 1931, that is how they re-built.  Character homes can be found in Auckland and in the out of the way places of this country, out in the countryside.  I have seen them, they are magnificent.  They are actually quite high maintenance because of their wooden weatherboard whereas if they were brick well, you wouldn't have to paint brick for starters.  Wooden floors, renovated modern kitchens, nice gardens, big garages, plenty of yard space, A LOT of yard space, really magnificent.

Maybe we could have a family, I don't know, she already has a son.

They are so affordable because the land and buildings are not in high demand, its about supply and demand. You really have to see these examples, you really have to, just extraordinary, look.

http://www.daviddrazek.harcourts.co.nz/Property/610768/TN3732/11-East-Street

http://invercargill.harcourts.co.nz/Property/619864/IV25743/67-Queens-Drive

http://invercargill.harcourts.co.nz/Property/619040/GO7629/23-Wigan-Street

http://invercargill.harcourts.co.nz/Property/618745/GO7582/29-Coutts-Road

http://invercargill.harcourts.co.nz/Property/614528/IV25524/9-Grange-Street

http://invercargill.harcourts.co.nz/Property/611677/GO7368/7-Verona-Street

http://invercargill.harcourts.co.nz/Property/609663/IV25242/72-Earn-Street

http://invercargill.harcourts.co.nz/Property/608385/GO7268/209-Main-Street

http://invercargill.harcourts.co.nz/Property/606962/GO7236/72-Hamilton-Street

I want to paint the trim of the house above a light green.

http://invercargill.harcourts.co.nz/Property/606892/IV24856/27-Newcastle-Street

These are all beautiful homes and I want to live in one like these with my girlfriend.  Invercargill is a Celtic name for our most southern city but it can get extremely cold in the winter time.

http://invercargill.harcourts.co.nz/Property/594113/IV24228/70-Happy-Valley-Road

That one might be pushing it but not impossible.

What do you think?  All that needs to happen is I sell up here and we buy anew down there.

Auckland, New Zealand

 Playstation 1 at the Auckland museum.

 Auckland museum.

 Britomart, the transport hub of Auckland.

 Corner of Quay street facing west, scene reminds me of London or Tokyo.

 Facing east, on a Symonds street overbridge.

 How many pedestrians hit today?

 Old Auckland train station.  A new one was built (Britomart) because this building was originally built too far away.

 Looking up Queen street, facing north.

 Out in west Auckland, a nice shot of something to fill the entire scene.

Travel blog

I have been thinking about turning this blog in to a travel blog.

This blog could be soon becoming a travel blog.

That is all.

Nich.

Random things...

I took a 2008 Mitsubishi i-Car out for a test drive yesterday, it was a turbo, in black.  Impressive.

Only another three months and this blog will be three years old, wow.

I have been thinking about my children, about my distant family, but things are much the same for me here.  Oh and I have a girlfriend now, she is a lovely girl, she really can be.

She is my second girlfriend, my first was Jewish and she was okay and I kind of feel bad about breaking up with her, she was very loyal.

So glad I started this blog now.

=(O-O)=

Hanging "tough"

So April 29th is the date of my last ex-girlfriends birthday, wow.  She must be about twenty five or twenty six now, in a job like Subway or something out there just out of California, with a partner in the U.S. army I believe.  Good on them.

She was z Zionist and wss good to me and I was good to her, but I ended it with her because I thought she was lying to me and the thing is, I was actually right, throughout.

She was a rather a big girl, probably too big for me today.  She had family back in the city of Philadelphia or as she would say... "back east".

Happy birthday Megan.

Another entry

Well, maybe I was thinking too positively in my last post and gave you, the reader, the wrong impression.

When I started this blog, how I am feeling right now or just a couple of days ago was how I was feeling back then, in August of 2010.  The pain can get unbearable and as I have brought up before, I don't know whether what I experience day to day is doing me any long term damage or rather doing any damage to my real health.

I am tired too, I hate this life.  I wake up every morning and I don't feel down or think, I hate this life, I don't think particularly anything.  I just wake up and carry on.

I have something to be happy about, tomorrow I will still try to sell my car and also, I get paid sooner or later.  Money can buy happiness?  Crime does pay?

A few things...

I thought a couple of days ago it was time for me to check in again.  This still stands, and that is if I do not post within six months after my last entry then you can safely say that I am dead, the United States government finally got to me... haha, only took them twenty seven years.  So make of that what you will and I hope you will genuinely mourn my passing, I would like to be remembered as truly a martyr and my martyrdom should be made to be so, martyrdom.  Killings, torture, jailings... whatever.  But I will be dead, and I won't know any different.  It is so silly though, because if I am such a threat, why am I still here?  I won't go over 9/11 again if I haven't already but there are a few things I want to touch on until my next post, if there will be one.

I only have a high school education.  A high school education is about as higher education as it got for me, then all the conspiracy anti-Semitic new world order tripe that I have taken in for the past thirteen years from such personalities like Alex Jones and his bum buddy David Icke, who will have you believe that George W. Bush and the Queen of England are really reptilian overlords.  Information, of which you can still call, that has been made so much more convenient for the pickings thanks to this American tool called, the Internet.

I know that my life could have been so much more different if only I had of changed.  If I had of given my life to god, our heavenly father, and become a devout Christian, it would have opened so many doors of opportunity for me and thus living a good life because of it, I know it.  What I chose was different.  I chose to build walls around myself, isolate myself, become a loner, then slowly learn to hate the world and everyone in it but, because everyone in the world vilely hated me.  And guess what, I am glad I made that decision.  Because I know now that I was really given a rough deal from day one.  One reason for my decision is, I am psychotic.  People with a psychotic illness such as mine have a problem understanding people or situations compared to people who are sane.  Even so, I only need just a teeny wee bit of medication to keep myself in check.  It is strange, because I don't know why I am mentally ill.  My parents don't appear to be mentally ill?  So how am I?  For at least four months in 2009/2010 I did go without any treatment and I found I was reasonably in check.  But my libido was through the roof and I could have fucked anything that walked like a rabbit.  It is funny too, because even with the mis-understanding on my end, there was also a devastating mis-understanding on the other, and that is sad.  I think the main reason though is I don't believe is this privileged bullshit.  Okay, let me explain.  If I had of become a Christian everything that would have happened to me and everyone I would have met would have revolved around god, no.  I am more of a realist also and because of that, I have lost out.  Still, I have been taught to believe in fantasy, I have been taught things that without, I think I could have had a very different life, but still a good and successful one.  As I explained to some young girls who stayed with me about this time last year briefly, I also don't believe in great men or idols, of that especially back in the U.S.S.R. and today in North Korea are tenets of communism or more how I like to describe such government with the word, dictatorship.  I hate to know this, but I do know there is a god, a heavenly father, but because of how I have been conditioned over the past thirteen years I resent him.  I live as a Satanist on the face of it, although not completely, as I do not practice black magic, however I would like to but I am weary and I see being Christian as a weakness, or being pussy.  Even Buddhism, the same.  However I do like this cat of good luck a bit, very cute.  This cat of good luck of Asia is very dis-arming and charming, I want to make love to it.

Anyway, I have my reasons and I have stuck by them for all this time.  The latest revelation that I have found to do with the bigger picture is that I have actually never raped anyone, and if I did, it was all part of gods plan, was it not?  Something to think about.

I get tired of having to harp on about this and this blog on Blogger allows me to do so.

The United Nations in New York City could be the basis of our future one world government.  Again, how I have been conditioned over the past thirteen years has taught me to hate unification.  The white supremacists of movements such as Stormfront and the black supremacists of Al Shakur both hate unity.  They hate unity because they are clearly separatists.  I made it public that I thought I would join Stormfront if Barack Obama won a second term in office, I have yet to do so.  But then I get caught up because I race mix with Asians and add to that my homosexuality, of that I believe is gods plan.  That is something I could be killed over by people of my own race.  I think what really gets my goat though is this South Korean girl I used to know and how she broke my heart so bad.  She actually was of age when I first met her, but still treated me like a piece of shit then just slaps me in the face like a thousand times by having sexual intercourse with black men.  It just makes me so angry how she could do something like that to me.  If she had of told me herself, then okay.  But instead I get communique from two ignorant righteous stupid Christians.

Who I blame for all of this though are whites.

Well, I want to thank you, the reader, for reading my blog up until now and there might be more sooner or later.  So have a nice day and treat others how you want to be treated?