MY HEAD HURTS...

Its almost nine thirty at night, a bit uptight.  And yes, that rhymes.  I have thought that maybe I could take some pictures of different stuff, like interesting stuff, and put it up here.  It would be so easy and of course, it would have to do with what this blog is meant to be about.  Conspiracy to murder, torture, alternative discussion and you know, that kind of thing.

I haven't been thinking about my sister or really much of my family lately but I do wonder how she is.  She has really done so well and I say that time and time again.  She has two children now, a partner, a boat, a jet-ski, two cars, they live in one of, if not still the most desired place to live in this city.  But even she too, I know there is something she doesn't want me to know.  I think I know what it is, but I am not sure.

Wow.  Well, she made it, I guess.  I remember her telling me that she thought that our mother has a mental illness.  When I thought about that the other day, it dawned on me BOTH of our parents do.  But it doesn't show?  Interesting.  They don't take any medication though for any mental illness.  Not too sure, maybe there is something there that should be uncovered and if so, then between either the three or four of us.  The whole world doesn't need to know.

I know why she was brought up so rough by our mother and I think she secretly knows too.  Wow, I am describing our mother with the word OUR instead of MY... I feel so touched.

However, and rather fortunately for me and also them, I have already met both of their children.  But I am still the uncle they don't know and quite probably never will.

So much for my ammunition to get back at you know who, I guess it doesn't matter anymore.  In the end, I am the only missing piece to my family, to my wider family, that over the last ten years, does not fit in.  So I guess the only thing to do is to completely separate myself from my family (especially my wider family and my WIDER WIDER family), and go elsewhere.  What I was talking about in my previous entry has a little to do with this one too, I believe, and perhaps one day soon I can prove it to you.

I am actually feeling pretty good today, however that can change at any moment.  Anyway, what I really wanted to post an entry about is a show that is currently nearing the end of their break and that I can view for free online (and on the official television channel website).  I don't watch television anymore, but I decided to give last night an exception and do so.  I was hoping to just see how the media (New Zealand media and state-owned) does their thing.  Anything unusual like out of the ordinary.  And they didn't disappoint.

These shots are from what I believe to be the most popular children's show in the country.  Channel three (or what is now called T.V. three since about ten years ago) doesn't have any such show anymore I believe.  So TVNZ won that battle, I guess.

What I saw was a little disturbing and this episode was recorded in October last year.  I guess they just wanted to go out with a bang by sending their hosts to Disneyland.

For those who don't know, Mickey and Minnie Mouse ears (but more commonly thought of as being Mickey), are associated with mind control, sexual abuse, satanic rituals... some kind of dark underbelly of Hollywood in the United States.  Britney Spears, Justin Timberlake, Christina Aguleira (spelling?) and others were part of a group called the Disney club a long time ago (as in the late eighties/early nineties) and I have seen them being used as an example of this side of Hollywood on exposay sites such as this one (http://www.vigilantcitizen.com).  They were children back then, like five years old, and back then from being child stars they have grown up with fame (and fortune) and had to deal with all the crap of the industry.  Britney Spears, it is said, her breakdown in 2006 was because of that.  Something called monarch mind programming.

If you ask me, I think there is a possibility that the Mickey mouse deal is a front for something else, for someone else, somewhere far far away from the United States where this has been created.  It is just a front, to try and unnecessarily hype and generate sympathy for that "someone else".  However, it could still be very real.  I just think, who came out with this?  Mickey mouse ears on heads, pyramids, one eyes, chess or checker boards... what the fuck?  Is all of that really something for people to be afraid of?  Because is it just a front for that "someone else"?

These shots weren't captured in the order of appearance of the show because this happens in the intro every time.  When the new show comes back for 2012 in March, it might be different.  If it is, I had absolutely no part whatsoever in reforming it.  As you can see, she is wearing a bling bling like cross that is telling us she is a Christian.  However, I think she is really more than that.  And anyway,  I don't like to say it but seeing that makes me all warm and fuzzy inside.

I came across this nearer the end of their final episode for 2011.  This is a group of teenage girls dancing and as you can see, and how I have circled where I want you, the reader, to pay attention, you can see on their purple shirts there are crowns.  This could be somewhat gang affiliated or to do with something called seven mountain dominionism, or both.  Seven mountain dominionism has to do with ruling as kings.  Who these kings are?  I don't know.  It has to do with Christianity by the way also.  There is probably almost not one Christian that doesn't want to see heaven on earth or Gods kingdom come to this earth, I think there is a possibility this is what that represents.  The show didn't go into much detail about it as in provide a bit of background information about them on the screen in text and or interview the dancers.

But, there is something else.  I actually have owned since childhood a Mickey mouse soft toy as you can see here.  I have never been to Disneyland and if I have, I was never told about it.  There is a possibility that that was just bought in some airport shop at L.A.X..

This too.  This is my only belt that I wear most days and as you can see, it has a pattern of a chess or checker board.  I bought it from a retailer called Jay Jay's in I think the beginning of winter last year and they are very up with it with fashion, pop culture, whats hot and whats not... you should get my drift (as they should be).

So that's that.  Maybe what I took away from watching that I am making such a big deal over and it shouldn't be dealt with that way.  But I am still weary as we continue to live in this changing world.

Sigh.  Another night, dark, somewhat quiet, a good time to type out another entry.  And Blogger has moved down a line again, like it always does in this message box... for me anyway.

To my female Malaysian friend, my one friend... or follower, if you are a Freemason I will remove you.  I found out about her blog at random so if she is really a Freemason then I think that was no coincidence.  Malaysian too, how sad.

Speaking of Freemasonry, I had a really weird dream last night.  I dreamt I was with many other people and we were all together and something told me we were in Egypt or some Middle Eastern country.  The thing about the dream that struck me though was we were high up on a mountain and we were looking down at all these pyramids with the Illuminati eye on them, like on a desert or plain.  When I think about that now, it scares the living daylights out of me slightly.  Honestly dude, I am not making this up.  I had that dream and it was timed right.  That was not natural, what happened to me there was science.  The dream was also pretty dark and gloomy.  The pyramids were dark, almost pitch black, the eyes could have been gold as I remember I think, the sky was black... it must have been at night.  Wow, just documenting it here scares me even more.  Right now I am pretty scared and I don't get scared very much.

But also angry.  Angry because they proved to me that they are a threat and need to be dealt with.  These people don't really believe in a god, they are men and women who have the power of god themselves.  There is no need for them to have some kind of belief in a higher power when they have their powers.  They know that there is no such thing.  What they are doing is using de-classified government secrets... or what used to be secrets.  I will also have you know that I looked up the N.S.A. headquarters on Google maps the night before so I am deeply convinced that and that are related.

So thats that.  I am sure my royal chariot will be waiting for me when I want to leave the house tomorrow.

Brandon Flowers still sounds like a woman, heh.  But not a bad track, one of the singles lifted from off of that album.

You talkin' to me? You talkin' to me?

YOU MUST BE TALKIN' TO ME BECAUSE I'M THE ONLY ONE HERE!

Okay, that was random.

I have this habit of when I'm explaining something I speak in the past tense instead of speaking in the present tense, its weird.  You must have picked that up by now by reading my last entry for one.

Well, I went for a bus ride today, I needed more pasta sauce.  I don't like how I have to leave the house, board a bus and travel all that way just for one item.  However I haven't driven a car in over a year now because I get too angry for absolutely no reason at all.  I'm like Tony Soprano (James Gandolfini) or someone, always angry.  Or like an angry loner watching television at three in the morning as described by Homer Simpson.  Also single people and the unemployed, I fall under all three.

I like too how I can board a bus and go for a ride every time when I'm not really suppost to.  Bus tickets here are valid for only one hour from the time of purchase but I can go to a nearby shopping mall going south, get off, do my thing, then board again and if I really wanted to, I could go for a round trip around the whole city (depending on which number bus it is) then come back to a stop just outside the street my house is on.  I think now that I've mentioned it, the city council or some other authority or organisation associated with them might put a stop to that.  Actually, knowing them, they probably will.  What people are suppost to do is just get to A to B and back again, not go for joyrides.  According to an official report the bus company here (there is only one) is running at a huge loss in the millions of dollars and should be put out of service, the whole setup.  Too many people are still driving their cars I guess.

When are children going back to school?  It must be very soon.  Learn their ABC's and 123's and then later on study media (after the government conveniently introducing it as a new subject) and their Martin Luther King's (while discovering time travel for the first time) when they get to high school and (in not really this order) have gangsters infiltrate the school I'm in by becoming teachers and make all their English class cheat in the end of the year exam (when it was the school certificate system) and then at the end of the year go out to his expensive new dark green BMW (that in no way a new teacher could afford to own) and bring out a supermarket bought banana cake (that he said his wife baked) and... you should know the story.  There were one, two, three, four, five, six and maybe a seventh one.  All of them should have got nowhere near a school and obviously one of them didn't bother teaching us when to use apostrophe's and correct grammar along with one or two other things.  We actually all read a book about the story of some Bosnians (like probably refugees) caught up in the war of Bosnia of the early to mid-nineties but it was a walk through because he sat at the front of the class and narrated it to us.  I guess we wouldn't have read it ourselves anyway and we would have failed because it must have been a book report but I don't remember.

Time to get some more sun, GOD I LOVE MY LIFE!  Well, not really.

I have been experiencing head pains as of late and they have become more frequent and some are stronger than others.  However I have been experiencing these from the get-go in 2003 when the conspiracy moved up a gear.  This isn't I believe to do with the torture I have been experiencing, it is really something else... to do with hi-technology.

Well I will be up for a while yet maybe.  I would like to wake up more late at night and log on when everything is so quiet but most importantly when I'm not angry, only the slightest.

Also, been watching episodes of 'Growing Up Gotti' on YouTube.  That show only ran for like a year from 2004 to 2005, it was a failure rating wise.  Still entertaining however with a laugh here and there but even though it could be all scripted (when the entire show is suppost to be pure reality that is meant to mean anything can happen at any time), it does give you a little insight into the life of what according to... Heather Gotti (?), mob life WAS but actually still is even though her husband is dead (after dying in prison) and even though she said she has left it behind taking the rest of her family with her.  There is even a movie on YouTube by ABC that had nothing to do with the show but was a report that at the end said they believed they were victims of a vendetta by the United States government.  I don't believe that for a second, especially after seeing more of the show.

The last show I saw and followed every time was 'Rockstar Supernova', the one after 'Rockstar INXS'.  I couldn't stand American Idol and the judges from what I saw would drink totally over sized cups of what could have been Coca' Cola.  That must have made them totally hyperactive!  'Rockstar Supernova' was a flop, because the band Supernova or Rockstar Supernova only recorded one album and no one heard a peep from them since.  I mean, if they had of made their run a more continuous thing then fine.  Tommy Lee and all the others that joined up with the winner of that competition, Luke (?)... Lucas (?) Rossi just put out one album and that's it, nothing more.  Then Motley Crue came back with an album that totally fell under the radar that included the single 'Saints Of Los Angeles', what an embarrassment.  Lucas Rossi must be back to where he started before he won that show, not really any further ahead.  The same could be said for the new INXS too starring J.D. Fortune.  Just one album then rode off into the sunset.

I don't watch really television anymore though, that's that.

Nothing to report.  Misery continues but only in the day, at night it goes away.  Hey!  THAT RHYMES!  Wow....

SHIVER ME TIMBERS!

I am afterall just an Internet user.  I don't have any business tied up online in which case I would support P.I.P.A. and S.O.P.A. (is it appropriate to put dots between the letters?).  Even though I am an Internet user I can't really get behind the whole freedom infringment argument.  I do think its funny how there is still a war on terrorism and Internet freedoms could be taken away for the sake of the dollar.  The war on terrorism is totally all about freedom, remember?

On one hand you have a group of people that are saying that its all about money and greed and on the other, that is the minority, little has been said such as even though all this content is free, greed is still involved.  I know some people who download up to a terrabyte of data each day!  Well apparently anyway.  They get abused, the freedoms the Internet has.  I think it must be human nature or they were dropped on their heads as kids.

So we'll see what happens but I think right now these bills could be in the end forced to walk the plank and jump.  As for Kim Dotcom (bad name, the last part of it anyway), I think there will be a major upset for law enforcement and he will be set free.

Arghhh matey...

I have something to say, much similar to what I said but a bit more to it like I did on the Wikipedia comment page before their blackout.  I haven't drafted this entry like about a year ago when I would usually do so with pencil and paper, the old-fashioned way, before typing it up.

In the end, and this is what I said in my one Wikipedia comment, I think I could care less either way as to the success or failure of P.I.P.A. and S.O.P.A..  Okay, so these freedoms could potentially be taken away from me and millions of others around the world and that is the line the pro-piracy people are saying along with some other things.  Yes, it is probably all about money.  This is going to be debated in the United States next week.  This is all a big surprise and the way I see it, has totally come out of the blue.  I didn't see any reports about this by any news organisations (Los Angeles Times, Washington Post, NZ Herald etc....) leading up to this.

Its funny, because there has been a high-profile arrest of some dude just today who is a pirate, but big time.  It wouldn't be fair on him if he was just the only one and the rest of them can get away with doing the same thing because the authorities, for some reason, just couldn't give a fuck to go further, or something like that.

I am happy to see Anonymous raise the middle finger to B.M.G. and some other Hollywood people, by taking down their sites, who are obviously anti-pirate.  But what happened there wasn't about piracy to me in my eyes.  They hit two birds with one stone because those music executives and everyone in that music industry in the United States needed a good kick up the ass for how they have been running their businesses.  Building personality cults, the associated Illuminati (spelling?), Freemasonry... that sort of thing... then they wonder why their industry is worse off than how it has been in the past and piracy isn't completely responsible, its because they have totally lost their way.  I think the general public could have already tuned out from what these record companies continue to offer up.  Well, they have themselves to blame for that.  They should know better.  Bunch of crazy motherfuckers...

Also the government too.  Why has it taken twelve long years for something like this to happen?  I just can't understand why on the face of it the government, any government, have just sat on their hands all this time and done diddly squat about this issue.  Sure, good news for pirates and even me too but I just can't fathom what has taken the United States government so long.  It is just unbelievable.  Then, maybe I already know.  I have been taught that this is okay, and have been taking this for granted, because the government has allowed it.

Someone pointed out on the Wikipedia comment page (it has been taken down now) that what they have done with their blackout was extortion and whoever said that was actually right.  I also thought what they did was actually helping P.I.P.A. and S.O.P.A. but didn't go far enough.  Twenty four hours came and went.  I didn't think Wikipedia was at risk until I found out about the blackout.

It will be interesting, if these bills become law, how the Internet is going to change, INTERNATIONALLY.  What could happen here could be a real game-changer.

Well, more of my freedoms could be taken away (Wikipedia, YouTube, XNXX) and god knows I have had enough of them already taken from me by the government.  Still, like I said, I could care less either way but maybe I should care?  Hmmm....

God all these flip-flopping assholes make me sick.

 

Hey.

So why does Blogger move down a line when I start a new entry in this typing box?  Huh?

I have been thinking about starting a Twitter account and regularly tweeting my life away on that social networking site but I think I feel I would be giving too much information away.  Still, its not as if it would probably make my life any harder than it is now.  Yes, I know that secret agent man in the sky is still waging his information war against me.  You know that song?  Secret agent man?  Haha.

I have had enough of this life, I want it to change.  Oh how I want my life to change, without god that is.  I shouldn't have to do anything.  The N.S.A. infringes civil rights every day and they get away with it.  Can you just imagine what those fat Americans behind their computers (could be holograms) are doing right now?  Who are they watching?  How are they meddling?  Very powerful nobodies in the sky that can blow up someone with a bomb on the other side of the world after an agent fixing it to a car.  Better than that, how about causing a heart attack from space... the power of god.

I don't think technology can get better than it is now really.  The way I see it is if time travel was achieved for the first time, say after WW2, then it would certainly open a can of worms and unfortunately, a dangerous one too.  If technology a hundred, even a thousand years from now was brought back to this time (instead of leaving it where it should be) to just start something great.  You know, the United States is not an empire, its a union.  The president of the United States is not a king, he is still a politician.  The separation of church and state could be a war about to heat up in the coming year.  But, the church has already merged with the state, however in secret.  I believe the two should keep their distance.  Not a complete integration, but Christian values that many politicians do have (however if it were me, well no) can sometimes be used in positions of power.  Anyway, maybe one day soon the majority of Americans will actually want a nation under god officially governed by the establishment as it is now however modified to suit.  When that time comes, I think I should be grateful I am not an American and I never was and probably never will be.  It could get ugly.  Its an interesting concept, a nation under god, a theocracy.  Like the kingdom of Saudi Arabia.  I think it would be very much like countries in the Middle East.  Cutting off of limbs, lashings, stonings... you should get my drift.  How ironic would that be given the almost complete construction of now the new representation of freedom, the Freedom Tower in New York City.  It is my theory that the attack of the World Trade Centre was an inside job to ultimately achieve freedom.  Freedom.  No currencies.  It brings the word new meaning.  Freedom in my book is also freedom from religion as well.  However there are potentially new leaders of that country who don't see freedom that way, and that is I guess sad.  I don't think there could ever be anarchy.  Without currencies, that is one step toward anarchy but I believe there would be a step taken back because a system, a new one, would have to be installed as an alternative.  Like based on points or something.

Ugh, this kind of thing can do my head in, it really can.  Know this, it will happen after sabotage of the system we know now as the powers-that-be believe it should change according to their sick and twisted view of the world.  And people think I'm fuckin' crazy.

Remember, death to America... especially when the gods will be done on earth kingdom come Christians get their way.

I think it is time for another update.

You know, I've been thinking.  I've been thinking about still what happened to me in 1988 or 1989 (don't know which year it was) and I blame Americans for what happened.  Al-Qaeda?  Oh please.  According to Wikipedia Al-Qaeda was in fact formed in either one of those years but I really do doubt they had any involvement in what happened to me, that day I too was a victim of terrorism.  Compared to everything else that has gone on, it is really so small and shouldn't matter as much.  And, I guess it shouldn't.  The seatbelt was no good, it probably only went across my lap so loosely there was no way it could stop me flying forward and hitting the cold hard dark grey steel back of the seat in front of me that knocked me out.  Then I was carried off the plane apparently down some steps or what likely or should have happened was the inflatable slides were activated and we all slid down out of the plane like snakes.  What happened next?  I believe I was abducted by medical professionals who worked for the United States government and probed, or something done to me anyway.  Today, I am still a victim of their conspiracy.

Mind you, this was nearer the fall of the U.S.S.R. and the end of the cold war.  Russia hasn't been the same since.  However I think it was likely Americans.  Why?  Texas, Houston, N.A.S.A., Bush... and a couple of other ways you can spin it.  It was an act of terror by the United States government that would serve them later on for what would happen in my life over ten years later.  That is one theory.  And hey, they have that kind of power.  These are very wealthy and powerful people that are involved here.  How they became involved, I don't know.  Maybe just by living here they feel violated by my presence.  If I could change something, maybe I would change that.  But what has happened has happened.  I don't think it was necessary, but that's just how some people think.  If it weren't Americans, they would have foiled the plot that was pretty much an assassination plot.  BUT I LIVED.  HAHA.

So that's something I have been thinking about recently.  The United States government started that with me, they started it.  There should be no excuse.  What does the United States government want with me?  A New Zealander?  The truth might shock most of you or it probably should.

But, I could be wrong and I shouldn't relate what happens to me today by an American conspiracy to what happened back then.  It could be something I might never know.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

So, 2012.  At the other end of this year the world might end however I think that it likely won't and this Mayan calender business is being blown way out of proportion.  There is alot of guesswork to do with this amongst everybody it seems.  When I think about it a bit more though, I think everybody knows anyway and are under some illusion that they don't know for sure.  Whether the world will end, whether it won't.  But I think that there are people in this world that really do know for sure as to whether it will and I think I know too so I will say right here and now that we will be all here for 2013 and beyond.  However I believe I only have three more years to live, probably two, until I die.  Then I could die any time.  I hope that like one of the people caught up in the Lockerbie bombing, Meghari (spelling?), that I live longer than I think I will.  I might surprise myself.

What have I been doing?  You readers might be asking yourselves.  Well, I've been busy looking at all kinds of pornography and it has been this way, every day, since about May last year.  May 2012 will be here before I know it and that will mark a year I have been doing that.  I have had people stay with me, after communication online, instead of being in this house all by myself and feeling alone.  It would have helped if I had of done that about a year or so ago but what are ya gonna do.  My birthday passed, I am now twenty six.  So in my life it goes my birthday first on the 19th of December, Christmas on the 25th and New Years on the 31st/1st.  Around that time is suppost to be one big party and only people like me with their birthday so close to those other dates can do so.  But, there was no big party.  Just quiet beers with complete strangers who I met from off the Internet, a bit of wine mid-way through a tramp in the middle of the day with also strangers and then when the biggest party of all came, I was just too tired and thought I would only fuck things up for them with my presence and conversation and tried to sleep instead.  I think I could have made it through about twelve hours, but while they stayed with me I got little sleep and was eating very little.  Thats all in the past now and I can't go back.  The experiences weren't totally worth remembering but I still have photos up on my fridge to do so.  It was something, anyway.  At times like these you can say, it was better than nothing.  I have mixed emotions about what happened, but thats just the way it is.  I will never see them again and their names are; Ignacio, Markus, Lisa, Tanja, Barbara, Joschka and the other one I can't remember exactly but it was like, Yavik or something like that.  He was a very tall eighteeen year old that looked like he could be in the military.

What else?  I got one hundred dollars for my birthday and have only spent three quarters of it plus I think one my visitors stole some of that money from me but there you go.  I was expecting another one thousand like last year.  But, its like, I think I already have everything.  I could use a new computer monitor, but I will take care of that.  I could put the treadmill up for sale, that should fetch about a grand.  There are other things, but they will be dealt with by someone else.  The other week I saw a very big and very flash LCD television for only five hundred dollars, that could be something to consider but there is no way in hell I will be watching the latest episode of American Idol on it in high definition when I get it back home.  My visitors said to me that I should put pictures up on my walls because there are hooks there but nothing hanging from them!

I have a car that I haven't driven in almost a year, maybe that can go too.  Its a Toyota Camry, Gracia.  I think I would rather be driving a sporty little Mitsubishi Mirage.  Or even better in my opinion, a Toyota Corolla wagon because they have more space in them, I like that.  How about a van?  No freedom camping allowed anymore in this country unfortunately.

Well, say goodbye to 2011 and hello to 2012.  We are very slowly going forward.