The lie

There have been many lies told by word of mouth but by my title I am not saying there is only one.  In my life though, there is, the lie.

Should I be thanking god for my life?  Really?  I was raised to believe that through work, saving and investment, it is thanks to those principles of capitalism that has made me.  When people tell me I should be thanking god for something?  He really doesn't deserve or shouldn't actually receive any gratitude.  On Christianity, I just can't believe in that respect Christians feel they should thank their creator for that.  How did they find god?

Frankly, part of Christianity is a lie.  Just some big charade.  Something that should be in a Hollywood film.

Nemesis of god

With each passing day, these christian western nations are getting closer to the theocracy that will take over the word of law with the word of god.

You, the reader, were probably expecting a dedicated entry on the crime against humanity in Christchurch, New Zealand.  All I will say is the non-believers had their human rights.  Shelter, food, water, ecetera... but I am not the one who said they shouldn't have.  The new world order had vaguely shone through in media coverage of the aftermath crisis.

Yes, I remain on the outside.  The true believers on the inside should be reminded as to why they are so exclusive.  When you have the most powerful man in the world encouraging you to believe in this gangster of a god, along with the presidents access to government secrets, that, he said himself will no longer be and become more "transparent", that is why they are so special.  They have been made important by the mafia state of the United States of American as a new world order.  That could replace completely the current prime ministers and presidents of this dying world.

I want to express my frustration against what I call, the nemesis of god.  For god is a nemesis.  Right here and now I will go so far to say he is a tyrant like the deposed Saddam Hussein of an Iraq, today occupied by Pax Americana.

Sadly for me, it could be too late.  But I can feel proud knowing I am the underdog as a victim of an American conspiracy that started in 1989.

Framed

Over the years I have developed a hate for people generally because of the hate that has been shown toward me.

The Americans.  What can I say?  Their country is a mafia state like Russia is, the only likely difference is that it isn't as in your face there as it is in still that fallen giant.

How do I put this?  The Americans are obviously shifting the blame by using a terrorist boogieman Osama Bin Laden as an excuse to do what they do.  But hey, its okay because it is good?  They have themselves to blame.  Especially when it is terror against their own people?

Then they make themselves out to be saviours of humanity.  No, I am not a tyrant, I don't have control of any weapons of mass destruction that they said Iraq had but was really who I suspect them all along.  I want my life back.  When will I get back my life?  And there is still an association between my life and the government?  Believe it.

Perhaps I should have stayed quiet.  If this has contributed to my demise then it may not have been my fault.  I know I'm tired of this life I am forced to lead.  My lifestyle is important to me but to probably survive, I have to change.  Well, I probably never will and can't anyway.

The inconvenient troll

Christians.  Theres no denying that some will resort to lies and trickery to get what they want.  I think it would be unfair of me to say that all Christians are like that.  I can't really remember off the top of my head how I have described the children of Israel on this blog before but there may have been times when I did generalise and call them such things.

Former President Dubya, a man of god - what the media had you believe during an eight years that was a downer for the country he was leading and for me personally, my late teens, full of no hope, desperation and untreated mental illness that really didn't kick in until I was seventeen.

Perhaps what was said was true,"Obviously, I pray every day theres less casualty".  One of the famous Bushisms which made him so mis-understood mainly on television during press conferences, briefings... whatever.  "...what do you and your father talk about?" and to that he replied,"Pussy.".  Did Dubya have a mental illness himself?  Dyslexia?  I don't think that should have excused him from lying about the war if so.

I'm not going to go on about this if I can help it but I pose this question, where are the weapons of mass destruction?  The scandal of Abu Gharib, I'm sure, won't ever be forgotten.  The anti-war left have fallen silent.  No more talk about war for oil, Halliburton contracts and all that man shit that was partly written in books by pro-left darling Michael Moore who was revealed as being a "puppet of the Republican party" by ironically his right wing opposition.  There is an underbelly of Afghanistan, Iraq and what started it all - 9/11 - that has but shouldn't go away.

Lies, trickery and probably deception in the name of their God, to go to war.  I think there will be another war in our lifetimes.  It could be part of the o' great crusaders hitlist that included North Korea, Iran and Syria.  I think even Egypt was included on it too.

I thought the wounds had healed but when I read another Iraqi war report today, they were ripped wide open.

The war on terrorism continues.  Oh, bless us.  Oh, praise the lord.  Or as the Flanders family joyfully sang,"Onward Christian soldiers, marching off to war!".

Followed blogs

I must be following about over twenty blogs now.  But I've caught onto something, I really shouldn't be.

Chi bidwee?  If I was your boyfriend I would think twice about letting you put up a risque photograph of yourself on your blog sitting on your bed.  Are you like a couple of young Asian swingers?  You said you worked for FOX broadcasting over the Christmas break.  This is nothing against you, but FOX owe me.  FOX happen to owe me big time for what they have done.  What does FOX even mean anyway?  I don't think it actually abbreviates anything.

Susan of 'Susans World'.  I think you're a fraud.  Enough said.

'Living Without Brenna'.  The same as above but I won't say those magic words that could get me killed.  Oh, fuck it, you are a CIA operative.

Ryan.  Yeah, nice try, buddy.  You are a two faced China man.  Stop appealing to my sympathy.

I think you're all liars.  At least, the blogs that are active.  I will be removing the above blogs listed because you all suck.  Especially that little Asian princess.  Screw you all.  I guess I will find more friends like you.

In the mountains

My father has told me that together we could be travelling to where is called the Central Plateau at the end of the month to round off the summer of 2010/2011.

I am excited about this.  I can't wait to get down there and experience that part of the country.  The mountains, the desert, the cold temperatures.  My father grew up there.

What could likely ruin it though is my still pretty much unknown cause of my anger.  I think the New Zealand government implanted something inside of me to monitor me but aid in their persecution to protect national security.  Yes, I was abducted - if not born into this deal.  It isn't fair.  And the question of fairness begins at the beginning.  I shouldn't have to apologise for anything.

I feel slightly angry just thinking about it but right now, minus the technological generated anger that dwells inside me (hi-tech slavery) - I feel fine.

That is the cause of all of my problems - it isn't necessarily anything I do.

I want my life back and mountains get ready for us.  We could be coming to visit soon.

No kinection?

In the latest issue of Official Xbox Magazine (issue 61) there are two pictures of the Microsoft Kinect.  In the first, on page 70, it has the pehirphel as a device that looks like a long black remote control sitting horizontally on the tripod.

But, on page 82 and 83 in a double spread it has what is suppost to be the same machine but not like it appeared on page 70.  It looks more like a sky decoder box like how I believe it should be.

Are my eyes playing tricks on me or have I discovered some kind of Microsoft conspiracy?

One looks like you could sit a cup of coffee on it but the other looks like something else.