MY HEAD HURTS...

Its almost nine thirty at night, a bit uptight.  And yes, that rhymes.  I have thought that maybe I could take some pictures of different stuff, like interesting stuff, and put it up here.  It would be so easy and of course, it would have to do with what this blog is meant to be about.  Conspiracy to murder, torture, alternative discussion and you know, that kind of thing.

I haven't been thinking about my sister or really much of my family lately but I do wonder how she is.  She has really done so well and I say that time and time again.  She has two children now, a partner, a boat, a jet-ski, two cars, they live in one of, if not still the most desired place to live in this city.  But even she too, I know there is something she doesn't want me to know.  I think I know what it is, but I am not sure.

Wow.  Well, she made it, I guess.  I remember her telling me that she thought that our mother has a mental illness.  When I thought about that the other day, it dawned on me BOTH of our parents do.  But it doesn't show?  Interesting.  They don't take any medication though for any mental illness.  Not too sure, maybe there is something there that should be uncovered and if so, then between either the three or four of us.  The whole world doesn't need to know.

I know why she was brought up so rough by our mother and I think she secretly knows too.  Wow, I am describing our mother with the word OUR instead of MY... I feel so touched.

However, and rather fortunately for me and also them, I have already met both of their children.  But I am still the uncle they don't know and quite probably never will.

So much for my ammunition to get back at you know who, I guess it doesn't matter anymore.  In the end, I am the only missing piece to my family, to my wider family, that over the last ten years, does not fit in.  So I guess the only thing to do is to completely separate myself from my family (especially my wider family and my WIDER WIDER family), and go elsewhere.  What I was talking about in my previous entry has a little to do with this one too, I believe, and perhaps one day soon I can prove it to you.

I am actually feeling pretty good today, however that can change at any moment.  Anyway, what I really wanted to post an entry about is a show that is currently nearing the end of their break and that I can view for free online (and on the official television channel website).  I don't watch television anymore, but I decided to give last night an exception and do so.  I was hoping to just see how the media (New Zealand media and state-owned) does their thing.  Anything unusual like out of the ordinary.  And they didn't disappoint.

These shots are from what I believe to be the most popular children's show in the country.  Channel three (or what is now called T.V. three since about ten years ago) doesn't have any such show anymore I believe.  So TVNZ won that battle, I guess.

What I saw was a little disturbing and this episode was recorded in October last year.  I guess they just wanted to go out with a bang by sending their hosts to Disneyland.

For those who don't know, Mickey and Minnie Mouse ears (but more commonly thought of as being Mickey), are associated with mind control, sexual abuse, satanic rituals... some kind of dark underbelly of Hollywood in the United States.  Britney Spears, Justin Timberlake, Christina Aguleira (spelling?) and others were part of a group called the Disney club a long time ago (as in the late eighties/early nineties) and I have seen them being used as an example of this side of Hollywood on exposay sites such as this one (http://www.vigilantcitizen.com).  They were children back then, like five years old, and back then from being child stars they have grown up with fame (and fortune) and had to deal with all the crap of the industry.  Britney Spears, it is said, her breakdown in 2006 was because of that.  Something called monarch mind programming.

If you ask me, I think there is a possibility that the Mickey mouse deal is a front for something else, for someone else, somewhere far far away from the United States where this has been created.  It is just a front, to try and unnecessarily hype and generate sympathy for that "someone else".  However, it could still be very real.  I just think, who came out with this?  Mickey mouse ears on heads, pyramids, one eyes, chess or checker boards... what the fuck?  Is all of that really something for people to be afraid of?  Because is it just a front for that "someone else"?

These shots weren't captured in the order of appearance of the show because this happens in the intro every time.  When the new show comes back for 2012 in March, it might be different.  If it is, I had absolutely no part whatsoever in reforming it.  As you can see, she is wearing a bling bling like cross that is telling us she is a Christian.  However, I think she is really more than that.  And anyway,  I don't like to say it but seeing that makes me all warm and fuzzy inside.

I came across this nearer the end of their final episode for 2011.  This is a group of teenage girls dancing and as you can see, and how I have circled where I want you, the reader, to pay attention, you can see on their purple shirts there are crowns.  This could be somewhat gang affiliated or to do with something called seven mountain dominionism, or both.  Seven mountain dominionism has to do with ruling as kings.  Who these kings are?  I don't know.  It has to do with Christianity by the way also.  There is probably almost not one Christian that doesn't want to see heaven on earth or Gods kingdom come to this earth, I think there is a possibility this is what that represents.  The show didn't go into much detail about it as in provide a bit of background information about them on the screen in text and or interview the dancers.

But, there is something else.  I actually have owned since childhood a Mickey mouse soft toy as you can see here.  I have never been to Disneyland and if I have, I was never told about it.  There is a possibility that that was just bought in some airport shop at L.A.X..

This too.  This is my only belt that I wear most days and as you can see, it has a pattern of a chess or checker board.  I bought it from a retailer called Jay Jay's in I think the beginning of winter last year and they are very up with it with fashion, pop culture, whats hot and whats not... you should get my drift (as they should be).

So that's that.  Maybe what I took away from watching that I am making such a big deal over and it shouldn't be dealt with that way.  But I am still weary as we continue to live in this changing world.

Sigh.  Another night, dark, somewhat quiet, a good time to type out another entry.  And Blogger has moved down a line again, like it always does in this message box... for me anyway.

To my female Malaysian friend, my one friend... or follower, if you are a Freemason I will remove you.  I found out about her blog at random so if she is really a Freemason then I think that was no coincidence.  Malaysian too, how sad.

Speaking of Freemasonry, I had a really weird dream last night.  I dreamt I was with many other people and we were all together and something told me we were in Egypt or some Middle Eastern country.  The thing about the dream that struck me though was we were high up on a mountain and we were looking down at all these pyramids with the Illuminati eye on them, like on a desert or plain.  When I think about that now, it scares the living daylights out of me slightly.  Honestly dude, I am not making this up.  I had that dream and it was timed right.  That was not natural, what happened to me there was science.  The dream was also pretty dark and gloomy.  The pyramids were dark, almost pitch black, the eyes could have been gold as I remember I think, the sky was black... it must have been at night.  Wow, just documenting it here scares me even more.  Right now I am pretty scared and I don't get scared very much.

But also angry.  Angry because they proved to me that they are a threat and need to be dealt with.  These people don't really believe in a god, they are men and women who have the power of god themselves.  There is no need for them to have some kind of belief in a higher power when they have their powers.  They know that there is no such thing.  What they are doing is using de-classified government secrets... or what used to be secrets.  I will also have you know that I looked up the N.S.A. headquarters on Google maps the night before so I am deeply convinced that and that are related.

So thats that.  I am sure my royal chariot will be waiting for me when I want to leave the house tomorrow.

Brandon Flowers still sounds like a woman, heh.  But not a bad track, one of the singles lifted from off of that album.

You talkin' to me? You talkin' to me?

YOU MUST BE TALKIN' TO ME BECAUSE I'M THE ONLY ONE HERE!

Okay, that was random.

I have this habit of when I'm explaining something I speak in the past tense instead of speaking in the present tense, its weird.  You must have picked that up by now by reading my last entry for one.

Well, I went for a bus ride today, I needed more pasta sauce.  I don't like how I have to leave the house, board a bus and travel all that way just for one item.  However I haven't driven a car in over a year now because I get too angry for absolutely no reason at all.  I'm like Tony Soprano (James Gandolfini) or someone, always angry.  Or like an angry loner watching television at three in the morning as described by Homer Simpson.  Also single people and the unemployed, I fall under all three.

I like too how I can board a bus and go for a ride every time when I'm not really suppost to.  Bus tickets here are valid for only one hour from the time of purchase but I can go to a nearby shopping mall going south, get off, do my thing, then board again and if I really wanted to, I could go for a round trip around the whole city (depending on which number bus it is) then come back to a stop just outside the street my house is on.  I think now that I've mentioned it, the city council or some other authority or organisation associated with them might put a stop to that.  Actually, knowing them, they probably will.  What people are suppost to do is just get to A to B and back again, not go for joyrides.  According to an official report the bus company here (there is only one) is running at a huge loss in the millions of dollars and should be put out of service, the whole setup.  Too many people are still driving their cars I guess.

When are children going back to school?  It must be very soon.  Learn their ABC's and 123's and then later on study media (after the government conveniently introducing it as a new subject) and their Martin Luther King's (while discovering time travel for the first time) when they get to high school and (in not really this order) have gangsters infiltrate the school I'm in by becoming teachers and make all their English class cheat in the end of the year exam (when it was the school certificate system) and then at the end of the year go out to his expensive new dark green BMW (that in no way a new teacher could afford to own) and bring out a supermarket bought banana cake (that he said his wife baked) and... you should know the story.  There were one, two, three, four, five, six and maybe a seventh one.  All of them should have got nowhere near a school and obviously one of them didn't bother teaching us when to use apostrophe's and correct grammar along with one or two other things.  We actually all read a book about the story of some Bosnians (like probably refugees) caught up in the war of Bosnia of the early to mid-nineties but it was a walk through because he sat at the front of the class and narrated it to us.  I guess we wouldn't have read it ourselves anyway and we would have failed because it must have been a book report but I don't remember.

Time to get some more sun, GOD I LOVE MY LIFE!  Well, not really.

I have been experiencing head pains as of late and they have become more frequent and some are stronger than others.  However I have been experiencing these from the get-go in 2003 when the conspiracy moved up a gear.  This isn't I believe to do with the torture I have been experiencing, it is really something else... to do with hi-technology.

Well I will be up for a while yet maybe.  I would like to wake up more late at night and log on when everything is so quiet but most importantly when I'm not angry, only the slightest.

Also, been watching episodes of 'Growing Up Gotti' on YouTube.  That show only ran for like a year from 2004 to 2005, it was a failure rating wise.  Still entertaining however with a laugh here and there but even though it could be all scripted (when the entire show is suppost to be pure reality that is meant to mean anything can happen at any time), it does give you a little insight into the life of what according to... Heather Gotti (?), mob life WAS but actually still is even though her husband is dead (after dying in prison) and even though she said she has left it behind taking the rest of her family with her.  There is even a movie on YouTube by ABC that had nothing to do with the show but was a report that at the end said they believed they were victims of a vendetta by the United States government.  I don't believe that for a second, especially after seeing more of the show.

The last show I saw and followed every time was 'Rockstar Supernova', the one after 'Rockstar INXS'.  I couldn't stand American Idol and the judges from what I saw would drink totally over sized cups of what could have been Coca' Cola.  That must have made them totally hyperactive!  'Rockstar Supernova' was a flop, because the band Supernova or Rockstar Supernova only recorded one album and no one heard a peep from them since.  I mean, if they had of made their run a more continuous thing then fine.  Tommy Lee and all the others that joined up with the winner of that competition, Luke (?)... Lucas (?) Rossi just put out one album and that's it, nothing more.  Then Motley Crue came back with an album that totally fell under the radar that included the single 'Saints Of Los Angeles', what an embarrassment.  Lucas Rossi must be back to where he started before he won that show, not really any further ahead.  The same could be said for the new INXS too starring J.D. Fortune.  Just one album then rode off into the sunset.

I don't watch really television anymore though, that's that.

Nothing to report.  Misery continues but only in the day, at night it goes away.  Hey!  THAT RHYMES!  Wow....