I have been experiencing head pains as of late and they have become more frequent and some are stronger than others.  However I have been experiencing these from the get-go in 2003 when the conspiracy moved up a gear.  This isn't I believe to do with the torture I have been experiencing, it is really something else... to do with hi-technology.

Well I will be up for a while yet maybe.  I would like to wake up more late at night and log on when everything is so quiet but most importantly when I'm not angry, only the slightest.

Also, been watching episodes of 'Growing Up Gotti' on YouTube.  That show only ran for like a year from 2004 to 2005, it was a failure rating wise.  Still entertaining however with a laugh here and there but even though it could be all scripted (when the entire show is suppost to be pure reality that is meant to mean anything can happen at any time), it does give you a little insight into the life of what according to... Heather Gotti (?), mob life WAS but actually still is even though her husband is dead (after dying in prison) and even though she said she has left it behind taking the rest of her family with her.  There is even a movie on YouTube by ABC that had nothing to do with the show but was a report that at the end said they believed they were victims of a vendetta by the United States government.  I don't believe that for a second, especially after seeing more of the show.

The last show I saw and followed every time was 'Rockstar Supernova', the one after 'Rockstar INXS'.  I couldn't stand American Idol and the judges from what I saw would drink totally over sized cups of what could have been Coca' Cola.  That must have made them totally hyperactive!  'Rockstar Supernova' was a flop, because the band Supernova or Rockstar Supernova only recorded one album and no one heard a peep from them since.  I mean, if they had of made their run a more continuous thing then fine.  Tommy Lee and all the others that joined up with the winner of that competition, Luke (?)... Lucas (?) Rossi just put out one album and that's it, nothing more.  Then Motley Crue came back with an album that totally fell under the radar that included the single 'Saints Of Los Angeles', what an embarrassment.  Lucas Rossi must be back to where he started before he won that show, not really any further ahead.  The same could be said for the new INXS too starring J.D. Fortune.  Just one album then rode off into the sunset.

I don't watch really television anymore though, that's that.

Nothing to report.  Misery continues but only in the day, at night it goes away.  Hey!  THAT RHYMES!  Wow....

SHIVER ME TIMBERS!

I am afterall just an Internet user.  I don't have any business tied up online in which case I would support P.I.P.A. and S.O.P.A. (is it appropriate to put dots between the letters?).  Even though I am an Internet user I can't really get behind the whole freedom infringment argument.  I do think its funny how there is still a war on terrorism and Internet freedoms could be taken away for the sake of the dollar.  The war on terrorism is totally all about freedom, remember?

On one hand you have a group of people that are saying that its all about money and greed and on the other, that is the minority, little has been said such as even though all this content is free, greed is still involved.  I know some people who download up to a terrabyte of data each day!  Well apparently anyway.  They get abused, the freedoms the Internet has.  I think it must be human nature or they were dropped on their heads as kids.

So we'll see what happens but I think right now these bills could be in the end forced to walk the plank and jump.  As for Kim Dotcom (bad name, the last part of it anyway), I think there will be a major upset for law enforcement and he will be set free.

Arghhh matey...

I have something to say, much similar to what I said but a bit more to it like I did on the Wikipedia comment page before their blackout.  I haven't drafted this entry like about a year ago when I would usually do so with pencil and paper, the old-fashioned way, before typing it up.

In the end, and this is what I said in my one Wikipedia comment, I think I could care less either way as to the success or failure of P.I.P.A. and S.O.P.A..  Okay, so these freedoms could potentially be taken away from me and millions of others around the world and that is the line the pro-piracy people are saying along with some other things.  Yes, it is probably all about money.  This is going to be debated in the United States next week.  This is all a big surprise and the way I see it, has totally come out of the blue.  I didn't see any reports about this by any news organisations (Los Angeles Times, Washington Post, NZ Herald etc....) leading up to this.

Its funny, because there has been a high-profile arrest of some dude just today who is a pirate, but big time.  It wouldn't be fair on him if he was just the only one and the rest of them can get away with doing the same thing because the authorities, for some reason, just couldn't give a fuck to go further, or something like that.

I am happy to see Anonymous raise the middle finger to B.M.G. and some other Hollywood people, by taking down their sites, who are obviously anti-pirate.  But what happened there wasn't about piracy to me in my eyes.  They hit two birds with one stone because those music executives and everyone in that music industry in the United States needed a good kick up the ass for how they have been running their businesses.  Building personality cults, the associated Illuminati (spelling?), Freemasonry... that sort of thing... then they wonder why their industry is worse off than how it has been in the past and piracy isn't completely responsible, its because they have totally lost their way.  I think the general public could have already tuned out from what these record companies continue to offer up.  Well, they have themselves to blame for that.  They should know better.  Bunch of crazy motherfuckers...

Also the government too.  Why has it taken twelve long years for something like this to happen?  I just can't understand why on the face of it the government, any government, have just sat on their hands all this time and done diddly squat about this issue.  Sure, good news for pirates and even me too but I just can't fathom what has taken the United States government so long.  It is just unbelievable.  Then, maybe I already know.  I have been taught that this is okay, and have been taking this for granted, because the government has allowed it.

Someone pointed out on the Wikipedia comment page (it has been taken down now) that what they have done with their blackout was extortion and whoever said that was actually right.  I also thought what they did was actually helping P.I.P.A. and S.O.P.A. but didn't go far enough.  Twenty four hours came and went.  I didn't think Wikipedia was at risk until I found out about the blackout.

It will be interesting, if these bills become law, how the Internet is going to change, INTERNATIONALLY.  What could happen here could be a real game-changer.

Well, more of my freedoms could be taken away (Wikipedia, YouTube, XNXX) and god knows I have had enough of them already taken from me by the government.  Still, like I said, I could care less either way but maybe I should care?  Hmmm....

God all these flip-flopping assholes make me sick.

 

Hey.

So why does Blogger move down a line when I start a new entry in this typing box?  Huh?

I have been thinking about starting a Twitter account and regularly tweeting my life away on that social networking site but I think I feel I would be giving too much information away.  Still, its not as if it would probably make my life any harder than it is now.  Yes, I know that secret agent man in the sky is still waging his information war against me.  You know that song?  Secret agent man?  Haha.

I have had enough of this life, I want it to change.  Oh how I want my life to change, without god that is.  I shouldn't have to do anything.  The N.S.A. infringes civil rights every day and they get away with it.  Can you just imagine what those fat Americans behind their computers (could be holograms) are doing right now?  Who are they watching?  How are they meddling?  Very powerful nobodies in the sky that can blow up someone with a bomb on the other side of the world after an agent fixing it to a car.  Better than that, how about causing a heart attack from space... the power of god.

I don't think technology can get better than it is now really.  The way I see it is if time travel was achieved for the first time, say after WW2, then it would certainly open a can of worms and unfortunately, a dangerous one too.  If technology a hundred, even a thousand years from now was brought back to this time (instead of leaving it where it should be) to just start something great.  You know, the United States is not an empire, its a union.  The president of the United States is not a king, he is still a politician.  The separation of church and state could be a war about to heat up in the coming year.  But, the church has already merged with the state, however in secret.  I believe the two should keep their distance.  Not a complete integration, but Christian values that many politicians do have (however if it were me, well no) can sometimes be used in positions of power.  Anyway, maybe one day soon the majority of Americans will actually want a nation under god officially governed by the establishment as it is now however modified to suit.  When that time comes, I think I should be grateful I am not an American and I never was and probably never will be.  It could get ugly.  Its an interesting concept, a nation under god, a theocracy.  Like the kingdom of Saudi Arabia.  I think it would be very much like countries in the Middle East.  Cutting off of limbs, lashings, stonings... you should get my drift.  How ironic would that be given the almost complete construction of now the new representation of freedom, the Freedom Tower in New York City.  It is my theory that the attack of the World Trade Centre was an inside job to ultimately achieve freedom.  Freedom.  No currencies.  It brings the word new meaning.  Freedom in my book is also freedom from religion as well.  However there are potentially new leaders of that country who don't see freedom that way, and that is I guess sad.  I don't think there could ever be anarchy.  Without currencies, that is one step toward anarchy but I believe there would be a step taken back because a system, a new one, would have to be installed as an alternative.  Like based on points or something.

Ugh, this kind of thing can do my head in, it really can.  Know this, it will happen after sabotage of the system we know now as the powers-that-be believe it should change according to their sick and twisted view of the world.  And people think I'm fuckin' crazy.

Remember, death to America... especially when the gods will be done on earth kingdom come Christians get their way.

I think it is time for another update.

You know, I've been thinking.  I've been thinking about still what happened to me in 1988 or 1989 (don't know which year it was) and I blame Americans for what happened.  Al-Qaeda?  Oh please.  According to Wikipedia Al-Qaeda was in fact formed in either one of those years but I really do doubt they had any involvement in what happened to me, that day I too was a victim of terrorism.  Compared to everything else that has gone on, it is really so small and shouldn't matter as much.  And, I guess it shouldn't.  The seatbelt was no good, it probably only went across my lap so loosely there was no way it could stop me flying forward and hitting the cold hard dark grey steel back of the seat in front of me that knocked me out.  Then I was carried off the plane apparently down some steps or what likely or should have happened was the inflatable slides were activated and we all slid down out of the plane like snakes.  What happened next?  I believe I was abducted by medical professionals who worked for the United States government and probed, or something done to me anyway.  Today, I am still a victim of their conspiracy.

Mind you, this was nearer the fall of the U.S.S.R. and the end of the cold war.  Russia hasn't been the same since.  However I think it was likely Americans.  Why?  Texas, Houston, N.A.S.A., Bush... and a couple of other ways you can spin it.  It was an act of terror by the United States government that would serve them later on for what would happen in my life over ten years later.  That is one theory.  And hey, they have that kind of power.  These are very wealthy and powerful people that are involved here.  How they became involved, I don't know.  Maybe just by living here they feel violated by my presence.  If I could change something, maybe I would change that.  But what has happened has happened.  I don't think it was necessary, but that's just how some people think.  If it weren't Americans, they would have foiled the plot that was pretty much an assassination plot.  BUT I LIVED.  HAHA.

So that's something I have been thinking about recently.  The United States government started that with me, they started it.  There should be no excuse.  What does the United States government want with me?  A New Zealander?  The truth might shock most of you or it probably should.

But, I could be wrong and I shouldn't relate what happens to me today by an American conspiracy to what happened back then.  It could be something I might never know.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

So, 2012.  At the other end of this year the world might end however I think that it likely won't and this Mayan calender business is being blown way out of proportion.  There is alot of guesswork to do with this amongst everybody it seems.  When I think about it a bit more though, I think everybody knows anyway and are under some illusion that they don't know for sure.  Whether the world will end, whether it won't.  But I think that there are people in this world that really do know for sure as to whether it will and I think I know too so I will say right here and now that we will be all here for 2013 and beyond.  However I believe I only have three more years to live, probably two, until I die.  Then I could die any time.  I hope that like one of the people caught up in the Lockerbie bombing, Meghari (spelling?), that I live longer than I think I will.  I might surprise myself.

What have I been doing?  You readers might be asking yourselves.  Well, I've been busy looking at all kinds of pornography and it has been this way, every day, since about May last year.  May 2012 will be here before I know it and that will mark a year I have been doing that.  I have had people stay with me, after communication online, instead of being in this house all by myself and feeling alone.  It would have helped if I had of done that about a year or so ago but what are ya gonna do.  My birthday passed, I am now twenty six.  So in my life it goes my birthday first on the 19th of December, Christmas on the 25th and New Years on the 31st/1st.  Around that time is suppost to be one big party and only people like me with their birthday so close to those other dates can do so.  But, there was no big party.  Just quiet beers with complete strangers who I met from off the Internet, a bit of wine mid-way through a tramp in the middle of the day with also strangers and then when the biggest party of all came, I was just too tired and thought I would only fuck things up for them with my presence and conversation and tried to sleep instead.  I think I could have made it through about twelve hours, but while they stayed with me I got little sleep and was eating very little.  Thats all in the past now and I can't go back.  The experiences weren't totally worth remembering but I still have photos up on my fridge to do so.  It was something, anyway.  At times like these you can say, it was better than nothing.  I have mixed emotions about what happened, but thats just the way it is.  I will never see them again and their names are; Ignacio, Markus, Lisa, Tanja, Barbara, Joschka and the other one I can't remember exactly but it was like, Yavik or something like that.  He was a very tall eighteeen year old that looked like he could be in the military.

What else?  I got one hundred dollars for my birthday and have only spent three quarters of it plus I think one my visitors stole some of that money from me but there you go.  I was expecting another one thousand like last year.  But, its like, I think I already have everything.  I could use a new computer monitor, but I will take care of that.  I could put the treadmill up for sale, that should fetch about a grand.  There are other things, but they will be dealt with by someone else.  The other week I saw a very big and very flash LCD television for only five hundred dollars, that could be something to consider but there is no way in hell I will be watching the latest episode of American Idol on it in high definition when I get it back home.  My visitors said to me that I should put pictures up on my walls because there are hooks there but nothing hanging from them!

I have a car that I haven't driven in almost a year, maybe that can go too.  Its a Toyota Camry, Gracia.  I think I would rather be driving a sporty little Mitsubishi Mirage.  Or even better in my opinion, a Toyota Corolla wagon because they have more space in them, I like that.  How about a van?  No freedom camping allowed anymore in this country unfortunately.

Well, say goodbye to 2011 and hello to 2012.  We are very slowly going forward.