Love

I have already made it known here on this blog that I have seen and engaged with prostitutes.  Two last year and about twelve more so far again this year, all Asian.  I visited my first strip club last Saturday and enjoyed my time.

I spend a lot of time sitting in front of my computer and many times I leave that then spend time outside in the sun.  Because of the sun, my eyes water but from also being in front of those flat panel monitors as well beforehand.  We live in a changed world now but for me it was really always the same, I just wasn't aware.  Well the hurt I have from doing what I have done is minor.

I know that throughout my life so far I have had a few girlfriends, but they were all fake just like those women in the sex business.  They never loved me, they just felt obligated by a religious motivation.  It isn't until one does get woken up and realise what happened as being all shit, just shit.  Love for me was never really any different at its core, that is my point.  It is funny too because I certainly didn't realise that before then (last year) and also just recently.  For five years I was abstinent, heavily medicated, and miserable.  I was being abused by the state.  I was driven to do and say anything back in 2003 for change in my life, and quickly.  I was desperate.  But it is because of the government ultimately I am in this mess.  Without their unwarranted meddling, things might be better for me.  Life is short everyone.  Well, it can be.  How can you tell someone that you are a pedophile?  You can't.  Is my life going to be normal?  At all?  No way.

Kim Dotcom

Below is a message I was going to post on the NZ Herald website, on this report that I have linked to, but now put it on this blog instead.  http://www.nzherald.co.nz/business/news/article.cfm?c_id=3&objectid=10816451 ...

-----

I do believe that Dotcom made a valid point on Campbell Live some months ago that YouTube and other sites get away with piracy so felt he was being picked on for perhaps in my mind some ulterior motive.

But on the other hand I do suspect that Dotcom is guilty of crimes that haven't come to light yet which are far more serious than just internet piracy such as terrorism, human trafficking, slavery, conspiracy to murder, breach of privacy both online and offline and drug offenses.  He doesn't have those flaunting plates on his luxurious cars such as MAFIA, STONED... and so on for nothing.  He has the criminal respect and he enjoys all the attention he gets from showboating, he is like John Gotti.

He is no friend of mine.

-----

Scare

I woke up early this morning and I was still in bed.  I had no idea what time it was and I really needed to urinate, so bad.  So I got up and did so but felt amazingly light headed and felt like I wanted to fall down throughout.  After I left the toilet I walked into a wall.  Then, I fell down (not hitting my head or hurting myself at all, I just kind of collapsed being in some control of how and where I fell) and felt like I couldn't get up again to return to my bed.  I thought at that time that I would just fall asleep on the floor, I was that tired.  I was feeling pain in my arms and legs too but my head was not in it almost completely.  While I was on the floor I gained my senses back quite a bit and then when I got enough strength, I went back to bed.

So there we all have it.  Until next time my people... VIVA LA REAGAN REVOLUTION!  LOL!

A couple of things...

So this new Blogger layout... I like it, so far.  That is to say from the log in screen to this message screen, I haven't explored it yet.  It is also interesting to note that there are changes about to happen at Wikipedia as well.  I wonder if it has anything to do with C.I.S.P.A.?  You know, the bill that passed the other day in the United States to do with the Internet.  Maybe, but I have told you my position on that and that is I could care less either way, I'm on the fence.  I find it funny that those who said S.O.P.A. and P.I.P.A. were a threat to freedom of speech are the same people who secretly want to take that, and other freedoms away.  Here in New Zealand the anti-file sharing law passed about a year or so ago now and the point of it, to try and fight file sharing or piracy, has pretty much fell flat on its ass as only about six people in this country have been prosecuted so far.  Before the bill passed, those who opposed it warned the policing of the law would be like Skynet from the Terminator movies.  They got together in downtown Auckland, in Aotea Square, and said so.  Only about fifteen of them as I recall.  For some reason, nobody else really gave a fuck.  Then later on Kim Dotcom got busted, around the same time as P.I.P.A. and S.O.P.A.... I can't remember which came before what but I know it was around the same time.

What I wanted to tell you all is that I am still alive but I do sincerely think that I might only have from a year to about two or three years at the most (three years is being very hopeful), left, to live.  Yes, the persecution has been a continuously gruelling experience every day for the last ten years and I still know there are ways out.  I think if it had of been anyone else, they would have to be super-human like me to have survived this long.  On the world stage, expect religion to influence more in our lives.  Now, just because I think and say that doesn't mean I am right because I could still be wrong but the writing is already on the wall, I know it.  Certain mind control religious cults are on the rise, on the up and up, and show no signs of slowing down to complete their quest for total control of everything and everyone.

Merry Christmas.

Splinter cell: conviction

So I must be one of the last Xbox 360 owners in the world to have completed this game by now but I did so this afternoon.  I hate having to experience automatic aiming and I hope my console doesn't get banned on Xbox Live because of it.  I don't want to cheat, I want to play the game according to my present skill and if my skill isn't good enough, then I have to improve... BUT NOT BY CHEATING!

The last mission is in the White House.  I doubted that the game before its release about three years ago would take the player there, but it does.  A very exciting mission, that whole level is a bloodbath.  Where else can I get my fantasies about killing the President of the United States?

Your character also visits the Third Echelon headquarters.  Now according to what I know, the N.S.A. is supposed to be all super secret so everyone who has played is left asking themselves whether that building in the game represents their actual headquarters in reality.  Maybe they don't have a headquarters at all?  I just loved spraying a big glass pane with the Third Echelon logo on it with my automatic machine gun inside of there, I also did the same to an American flag.

I think that's about all the spoilers I will reveal about what goes in the game.  Yes there is another Splinter Cell game coming... however it could be canned at any moment due to a five or ten minute phone call filled with atrocious swearing.  Splinter Cell games inspire patriotism in the United States and encourage recruitment within the N.S.A.'s ranks, but it also can serve as propaganda in still a time of war.  Splinter Cell: Conviction is the first game, except the very first Splinter Cell in which you have to infiltrate Langley, that goes where no other has gone before.  Conviction is not a complete stealth game, most of the time you are required to shoot up every tango in your sight.  Three interesting things I picked up about Conviction is the sticky cameras now explode instead of releasing some kind of gas, they play a patriotic song (could be the national anthem of the United States) instead of making a high pitched beep or siren-like sound to lure enemies to any trap and your character, Sam Fisher, does not have the ability to whistle to distract and trap enemies.  Playing through Conviction on the normal difficulty has inspired me to want to play through the older Splinter Cell games again.

So that's that.  Splinter Cell: Retribution is out this year I believe.  You can also read the books too, you should be able to find them in your local bookstore or local library.

Happy gaming.

Random things

Wow, so it has been almost a month until I have logged on and updated this blog.  We (whoever that is) are almost in our third year already!  Unbelievable!

Well, I have been busy, I won't say any more than that.

But now, it seems, I am back to a life of how it was before Christmas time last year.  Nothing to do except be in front of this computer, no family, no friends... and experience day after day of gruelling pain and misery by a government.  Yes, a government.  A government that should be brought down well and truly.

Okay, well until my next entry, be good.

Just say NO to John Key message

-----

Oh, hello, me again.  I can't remember when I posted my last, but also my first lengthy message to ALL my loyal supporters, haha!  As I have described to my friends, this Facebook page may have started as being about our prime minister, but has turned into something quite different.  I have seen anti-semitism, homophobia and as of late, many people have decided to change their avatar to a boy or girl!

One thing about you people is that you seem to have this conspiracy thing going on with Israel, the Godfather, the Illuminati and so on but the crunch is that probably all of you are those same people that you say you are so against!  The hypocrisy is incredible!  Still, good luck on taking back New Zealand I guess.   But if you really desire a concrete change within the politics of this country, I can tell you it will require you to eventually betray your Freemason overlords who play both sides of the game, who don't care who they fuck with, who apparently have, according to conspiracy nut heroes like Alex Jones, all the power.

As far as the New Zealand government goes, ANY government, they should have stayed out of this game.  But no, they were dumb enough to get involved and if they never did, from the beginning, there is a strong possibility this page would have never existed.  I see something down the page that says, GOVERNMENT IS MEANT TO SERVE, NOT RULE.  I also believe that the separation of church and state is important to prevent clusterfucks like this from happening.  If you know even just a little of the bible, god is indeed a ruler, so I guess even our heavenly father is in the wrong too.  So delete this message if I make your page look bad, I don't think I really care.  That's what happened last time and I didn't care.

-----

I was going to post that above on their Facebook page but decided against it.  However here it is here for all of you to read, enjoy.