Happiness in slavery

Many times recently I struggle to find the words to make up my entries.

I will probably be a slave for the rest of my life.  Now, orgasms are important to me.  Yes, it is a sin - it could be deemed selfish, but I think I would rather be in control than have the machinery do it for me at the will of someone else.

I shouldn't have to do this.  Why me?  When will the hatchet be buried?

I want to say, my blog is looking well in order thanks to the template designer.  I discovered that tool after all this time - four months.  A reminder, the handle 'unwashedflyer' is just one of those random Microsoft generated handles.  It was given to me by them and it stuck.  Expect more changes on the blog.

People should not go or ditch Facebook and come to Blogger if you can do what you can do here.  Facebook appears to me to be plain.  Andrew Zuckerberg is a billionaire, he is a rich Jew.

Day by day

It is 8:45pm, I feel fine.  I know now that I am up against something that is extraordinary.  Or, did I always know that?  A movement.  About one billion catholics.  I was thinking today, is Catholicism creeping in to south east Asia?  That should be a shame.  Asians are rejecting their native religions (Islam or Buddhism) and submitting to a Christianity with some flair.  A?  A Christianity?  God is government.  God is your mind control, weather machines, time travel and invisibility cloaks.  The saints, angels... representatives of this new world order are being paraded through the media.  This is no accident, it is very real.

There you have it.  In a nutshell, that is what you can take away from my entries throughout August and September last year.  But I swear I must have been intoxicated or something... somehow because I wasn't myself.

My life was diverted away from solitary confinement and attempted rehabilitation to street justice that will eventually lead to death.  There is an even bigger picture, and it lie with a new world order agenda and conspiracy that without, just might have changed my life for the better.  None of this would have happened.  Somehow my enemies seem to be ignorant to that truth.  Maybe I just fucked with too many people including a girlfriend I used to have from Melbourne, Australia named Ellie.  I was twelve.  No, this is true.

I would like to find whoever has the Maggie Simpson baby translator and cut off their fingers.  Then the Troy McClure who had a relationship with one of Marge's sisters for the sake of fame.  What am I talking about?  Oh, nevermind.  That is where the truth lay, in the beginning.

Yes, in the beginning there was man... and the rest I don't know.  His name was Adam though which I think is a nice name.  Then Eve.  So thanks Eve, we could have lived till five hundred years old if it wasn't for what you did.  Then, I doubt whether it really did.  We could have just been evolved from apes.

Normality

I think I have tried to find the time, words and effort to do entries like this.

Sometimes I ask myself how different my life would have been in the past and presently if what I thought I had, a normal life, was a reality for me.  Should it be a surprise to anyone that because of my exclusive life, which I could believe to be a lie, has made me but touched others as well?  I mean, it is a lie, frankly.  But it is a truth in the respect that that is how it is. 

What do I mean by exclusive?  I was born in to a life that could have had great things in store for me if I had of cooperated.  But, that doesn't make life, right?  Okay, what I mean is expecting someone to have an obligation to live how you want to them to.  Well, I can find comfort in knowing that my parents always accepted me.  They have been excellent providers.  If anything they didn't like about me I didn't know, they kept it to themselves.  The time I told my mother,"I am bi-sexual".  She said nothing really as her reaction but I think I know she still loves me because she provides for me still.  Is love too strong of a word?  Like?  She likes me?

It actually isn't fair.  People might think I'm lucky but I'm not really.  I'm not blessed?  Blessed?  I hate the word.  Privileged?  We should have known our place instead of trying to fulfill with faith some kind of belief in a religion that never accepted my father, that never should and is something on more thought I should never need.

There is a former past life of my father that I don't know.  I never knew.  My nature is to do alot of guesswork but without probably himself telling me, I will have no certainty.  I know that.

I know life would have been different without these outsiders coming in from going as far back as the sixties and from there, slowly developing their plans for my family.  Their intrusive and unnecessary influence of those outsiders didn't start in 2003.  It didn't start in 1988.  It didn't start back until earlier due to a righteous claim of money and power for their empire that is part of the bigger picture of who they are.  Al Capone used to think he was doing public good with his murderous life of crime.

How do I live?  You, the reader, will know I have a mental illness.  And, when I am alone, I am a very mentally unwell man.  But not only do I have to cope with my mental unwellness, also anger.  I get angry.  Once I got angry so quickly after I felt boiling blood rush to my head.  Now, why do you think that is?  That isn't normal.  Three issues.  The continuous music that plays in my head, the conspiracy and this anger.  Well, the two points in that last sentence are part of the conspiracy.  The same conspiracy I have been talking about after I founded this blog.  Without them, life would be normal for me.  It wouldn't be so hard.  Because it isn't and never was, it could go so far to make up an explanation for other things that have happened.

What more can I say?  I am unwell physically as well.  I could have only a couple of years left.  But don't be distressed by that, because I and nobody else knows that for sure.

WWE Smackdown VS. Raw 2011 Review

Them fighting words?

I am glad that I said the things I said about Smackdown VS. Raw 2011, because upon more play - I can't believe how low Yuke's Media have taken the franchise.

What goes hand in hand with any WWE game is everything about the WWE.  This too, has fallen to the bottom of the credibility ladder.

Again, you have characters that look like plastic figurines, the flow of every match is buggy as you could have, for instance, Maryse magically slide across the ring by herself when Eve is about to do her signature move.  Triple H falling off a ladder, hitting the ropes, then in the next frame he has somehow found himself laying on the floor of the ring mat.

It appears Yuke's have decided to steal other game idea's such as the Street Fighter character selection menu and use it themselves.  The thing is, it just doesn't wash.  In matches, your characters will have strength bars below where they're positioned on the screen instead of fixed in the top corners.  It is almost like a Final Fantasy game.  I like the mechanics of how you play, I won't say more.

Plus, there is a glitch that if you delete your saved game but keep your created superstars, they go out the window too.

WWE Smackdown VS. Raw 2011 is poor in many aspects.  OXM and GameInformer were too generous in their reviews.  The game scored an eight.  You've got to be fucking kidding me.

Get the 2009 release if you want a weighty wrestling simulator.  If you can do without the latest roster and storyline creator then do so.  If what the 2009 update had what the 2011 update has, it would be an awesome experience.

Maybe they'll make up for this lousy effort come this time next year.

David bowie fandom

He is called "the chameleon of pop" and or "Mr. Showbiz".  Another revelation about this long time famous veteran singer is my fandom of him could be a lie.

Let me attempt to explain.  The seventies in particular was (despite me not knowing myself as I was not alive then) an unusual decade.  Homosexuality in the music industry was common.  Freddie Mercury, Boy George, George Michael, Mick Jagger... David Bowie.  My point?  I guess the product of their music voluntary exposed the lifestyles they lived.

Osama Bin Laden is an anagram for seventies David Bowie persona Aladdin Sane.  Like I said, alot of strange shit went on in the sixties, seventies and eighties.  It wasn't until later on that society reformed.  I am suggesting that Osama Bin Laden is a lie.  There really is no Osama Bin Laden.  There never was an Osama Bin Laden.  This is more evidence of the United States government having 9/11 as an inside job.  I think as long as there is the internet, conspiracy theories about 9/11 will never cease to exist. 

In closing, am I on to something here?  How does one debunk this?  Aladdin Sane?  Osama Bin Laden?

Design

You might have noticed that this blog has been changing from time to time.  Mainly the header has changed.  Well, right now I prefer the header the way it is from an image I made up at an excellent graphics site called http://www.flamingtext.com/ to just simple text in the font, what I think is, Arial.

I think I might even change the position of where "My People" are to somewhere else on the page.  I have been clicking on "Next Blog" and have seen some truly spectacular blogs that have been made up well.

I don't usually do this, and that is type in entries without writing them on paper first in my exercise books.  But consider this entry some clarification on what is happening with this blog to do with design.

GameInformer

In the words of Robert DeNiro,"One of you is a rat".  GameInformer.

I think I still prefer Official Xbox Magazine.  One, because I only own an Xbox 360.  Two, OXM doesn't overwhelm you with columns of small printing on almost every page.  And three, you get a disc that if you get one really good playable demo, e.g. Tropico 3, Colin McCrae DiRT 2, Guitar Hero: Metallica - is worth the price of like three magazines and more!  OXM evidently is being slowly stripped down, however.  I am really at a loss to explain why.

I was happy to read about the Medal of Honor/Taleban controversy in the latest issue of GameInformer.  I have commented about this on another site.  Operation Fallujah, another realistic type war simulation, was based on the siege of Fallujah.  In Medal of Honors case, its only until players can simulate Taleban or now "OPFOR", there is an outrage.  What about games like Wolfenstein that you can play as Nazi's of the Third Reich?  Yakuza?  Mafia 1 and 2?  If its okay to play as those characters in those other games then lets get ready to behead some American infidel in Medal of Honor!  They should have no exception.

The families that complained don't appreciate and understand Medal of Honor.  They don't see it like we do.  Given that, it is for the wrong reasons, though.  We think shooting an American soldier is fun as a Taleban militant.  There is no capacity for the game Medal of Honor in multiplayer to be seen, to be really understood any other way besides that.  The intention of Electronic Arts wasn't to put out a game like Medal of Honor to insult the war effort.  Medal of Honor in campaign mode is suppost to tell a story.  That is something the families should recognise.