Personal experience

It has been raining here for days which allows me to not suffer the new world order torture so much compared to a fine day.  They just shock me over and over.

Last night I had a dream and it was a police raid on an apartment building that in reality, I believe a CIA agent lives and I'm familiar with.  Was I astral projecting?  Could the police finally have retrieved the hardware that is part in my persecution?  Have my tormentors been captured?

I think I know now that I don't need to travel back in time.  I think I would prefer to have this technology removed from my body, have the personal war against me stop, then live happily ever after.  Those bastards have to pay.

I don't want to feel angry again due to how my tormentors make me feel.  I don't need these imaginary things in my life but those fuckers just don't get that.  I live for myself (as I live alone).  I don't live for all of you.  I can't be this god you all expect me to be every day.  I never asked for this.  Why did I have to be punished this way - punished by people who think they know better and think they're above the law and use religion to justify that.  I am not evil.

It has just dawned on me now after all these years but I am thinking about paying for sex.  I am angry at my government for allowing this to happen to me - they must be held partly responsible.  I just can't live with this burden.  What I do should be none of their business.

If anything, if I pay a prostitute it might make me feel better.  This can't be allowed to continue much longer.

Will jesus return to earth?

Do you believe that Jesus will return to earth?

As the man that Jesus was but with his supernatural powers, I believe he won't pick and choose who deserves to go with him despite returning.

In the bible he said,"Where I am going, you cannot come".  That I believe is when he boards the time machine to go forward in time to supposedly save his believers.  Or, he just prays alone.

There is still debate as to whether Jesus was an Arab or a Jew.  I won't dispute that here but he was probably a Jew.  Jesus to me doesn't mean much but he still sanctioned stoning a woman for adultery in the bible as it was to do with gods will.

I had a theory that Jesus Christ was crazy and never performed any miracles.

It would be interesting why Latin America admires him so much.

Spy base discovery

http://www.3news.co.nz/Nicky-Hager-discloses-Israeli-electronic-spy-base/tabid/417/articleID/174526/Default.aspx

Correct me if I haven't spelt his name correctly but Nicky Hager will be familiar to those in New Zealand that exposed former prime minister Don Brashs extra-marital affair.

You know what?  Apparently he has found an Israeli spy base that he must believe is spying on Europeans.  This spy base discovery is in the desert of the Middle East somewhere.

I did a search on the Internet of the news yesterday but couldn't find anything from anywhere.  It is true, but remains likely hearsay unless it was in the papers as well.

Terror of crime against humanity

I have been thinking and I have thought about the Christchurch earthquake (the biggest since the nineteen thirties) and told myself to not give this declaration of war against New Zealand any attention.  But, until now, I don't have anything else to write about.

Look, this earthquake then the following crisis is a man made disaster by our new world order superiors.  I ask you, how can you people, the followers of those new world order leaders (I know you visit and read this blog) continue to support their terrorist like ways of destruction?

It makes me mad that you followers choose to delude yourselves, to kid yourselves when you all know the truth.  The pro-new world order media know full well how and why this has happened.  It wasn't just some unexplained act of nature.  Call those foolish talkback hosts and tell them the fucking truth.  Put them all in their place.

I well up with angst over this sometimes, especially when I put my thoughts to paper in words.

With their future telling ability (or merely plans for our futures) we're doomed.

I could almost say, actually I will say... that New Zealand is presently under attack!

Stage one

I have been thinking back to 1988 when I was abducted by British medical professionals and that hi-tech slave technology was implanted in me after being involved in that plane terrorist attack by the United States government.

I wonder if the past can be altered somehow.  I wonder if it has already many times over?

They should be held accountable for doing this to me.  I was innocent.  Plus, their campaign against me needs to stop.

Personal experience

I am mindful that I call god a hypocrite, describe him as "full of violent hate" and other things I have said that also can describe myself sometimes.

With that, it doesn't change that he actually is no matter how I might be.  I do doubt because of the man himself I am how I can be.

However, since I have been seventeen I have been under a heavy burden that has probably damaged me permanently.  It is like being in an abusive relationship or experiencing what seems like an eternal punishment for use of a better description.

Then, I think back to when I was seventeen and eighteen when I was diagnosed with a mental illness and know that I haven't changed at all.  I was still being affected the same and now it has been seven years.  I am pushing twenty five.  What I feel could be artificial.

Oh, my tormentors - when will you end your needless punishment that hurts me and makes you happy.  I keep reminding myself not to talk about the new world order so much so I don't come across like a broken record.  But they are all a threat (and have been before the day that "everything changed") to what we know.

Am I alone?  Am I alone in this personal war I am battling against bitter and cruel people?  I am one man.  But I don't quite think of myself as a man.  Actually, I find it hard to believe in myself as a man.  Over the last year I have learnt very much about myself.  A self discovery.

About six years ago I kept hoping this would end for me but it continues instead.

Corrections and clarifications

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  I don't do hard recreational drugs.  I do take anti-psychotic medication.  Some clarity to those who think I'm a nutter.

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  In Iraq and Afghanistan the issue is not only peace but political stability.

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  The Christchurch earthquake of the 4th of September, 2010 is a crime against humanity by the United States new world order crazies and is almost a declaration of war against New Zealand.  Nobody was killed.

Corrections and clarifications are listed in chronological order.