It has been raining here for days which allows me to not suffer the new world order torture so much compared to a fine day. They just shock me over and over.
Last night I had a dream and it was a police raid on an apartment building that in reality, I believe a CIA agent lives and I'm familiar with. Was I astral projecting? Could the police finally have retrieved the hardware that is part in my persecution? Have my tormentors been captured?
I think I know now that I don't need to travel back in time. I think I would prefer to have this technology removed from my body, have the personal war against me stop, then live happily ever after. Those bastards have to pay.
I don't want to feel angry again due to how my tormentors make me feel. I don't need these imaginary things in my life but those fuckers just don't get that. I live for myself (as I live alone). I don't live for all of you. I can't be this god you all expect me to be every day. I never asked for this. Why did I have to be punished this way - punished by people who think they know better and think they're above the law and use religion to justify that. I am not evil.
It has just dawned on me now after all these years but I am thinking about paying for sex. I am angry at my government for allowing this to happen to me - they must be held partly responsible. I just can't live with this burden. What I do should be none of their business.
If anything, if I pay a prostitute it might make me feel better. This can't be allowed to continue much longer.
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