Paul holmes

Another Saturday, another column.  He has put out a new book about the Mount Erebus disaster of the late eighties and in a nutshell, an Air New Zealand plane crashed killing all on board down Antartica way.  Air New Zealand used to fly their planes down there for an aerial tour of the mountains and snow from Christchurch I think.

He types up those columns about this and that but do you think he holds any credibility?  Because if you take the 'Abstain for the Game' campaign column calling the entire project stupid, how can he say that?  How can he say that when I suspect he had something to do with that all along?  Me and Mr. Holmes go way back.  I hope these entries with his name typed in them make it on to the highest ranking pages of Google.  I'd enjoy that kind of attention.  Right now, they could be way way back in the back of search results with the keywords 'Paul Holmes'.  As in, like in the hundreds.  I haven't checked.  If only there was an easy way to find out?  Google has changed in recent times because I used to use a search engine by the name of Lycos that had the ability to display webpages in a pop-up window before even clicking on them to log on.  Google has upgraded to do the same as them, coincidently.  Ha.

It is staggering how much pull Paul Holmes has in this world, period.  Crime, media, government... you name it, he has the power.  Who I suspect is a high ranking Freemason, thus, loyal the cause of Jews around the world.  He can make or break anyone, he has the power of god.  You would always want to be on his good side, with that said, of course.  However I'm not.  He has a daughter.  In fact, an adopted daughter that the media didn't hold back with jokes to do with involvement in 'P' or meth, when she had been doing it and got caught.  They said,"I wonder how long it will be before Millie Holmes shaves her head?"... refering to Britney Spears doing the same about this time five years ago after her breakdown.  Do I have sympathy?  Why should I?  Paul Holmes has it in for me and just wants to kill with kindness.  No, not only that, also hate.  What is a form of torture although I don't know what exactly it is called such as lack of sleep, sleep deprivation.  In one position for so long, forced rendition.  Actually, I think what is happening to me is another form of stoning with religious motivation, only electric shocks plus also hi-tech slavery to add to it.  I doubt they'll ever be put behind bars for this and there is no evidence plus the people who do this along with their associates will deny it all the way.

Paul Holmes was foolish enough to cross the line between fantasy and reality and go where he did where it was uncalled for and he was not welcome after.  I am still unsure as to whether it is really him or he is being used by someone he knows, likely a criminal figure, to represent him out here in the civil war against little man being erased, me.

If I am such a problem, what am I still doing here?  I should sue for at least $320,000 dollars in reparation and no your distractions and cover-ups I hope, will not work.  This treatment I experience should cease immediately, it is well over-due.  I am being set up here, to fail.  I need like a new name, a new face, a new place to live.  The New Zealand government does this for people like me but had to take a long, drawn out detour away from what should have happened at the unnecessary expense of so much money, so many lives, with the help of those who know the Prime Minister of New Zealand personally that have the power to do such things.  I don't believe these people that I have wronged are genuinely that angry, they're putting it on.  They are also jealous.

This should end immediately and never come back again.  I'd be better for it.

The bee gees

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RRNTQvXSsfA

Okay so go there through that link and get an idea in a song of what this is about.

Can't sleep

I like times like these when I can't sleep and I log on to Blogger to let you all know.  I think my food or drink was spiked again but I did drink a small bottle of Mountain Dew today and that can affect me.

However its better, because at this time of day, almost nine at night, there is no chance of me being uptight and on the edge of rage compared to say eleven in the morning when I usually am.  I mean, I'm suppost to believe that it is god or some spirit inside of me, maybe Satan.  But I know that it is to do with technology so because of that, it is why I would like to see my conviction overturned as I could say I was provoked to do I think it is safe to say, everything I did wrong.  It wasn't me, it was a technologically generated artificial feeling that I shouldn't have felt that made me do those things.  Is it happening to other people too?  Is that why marijuana is popular amongst people who suffer from mental illness like myself?  Is my mental illness, psychosis, more than it should be for me?  The continuous music playing in my head that is like an interrogation every waking moment.  I'm telling you, man, I'm dangerous... I am so dangerous.  My brain is terror.  Then, how many times over the last year have I told you all that?

I have thought about linking this blog through to my friends on http://www.xbox360achievements.org.  I have already made many and know the regulars.  It has only been about over a month.  Should I be afraid that they will find this blog too up the wall?  Do they already know?  Maybe I will link through but from their site, in one of their threads dedicated to Facebook, Bebo etc.... 

To mark the year, shall I change the design of this blog?  Perhaps I'll see what I can do.

You know, there is this American woman that I know that lives in this unit not too far from where I am.  Most of the time I walk past her place through a park, she is there waiting for me.  A bit disturbing really because she knows who I am but I don't know her.  I seriously think I might know her from a past life, as in... a life I am yet to live but in the past after time travel.  Wow, awkward. 

I was probably like, back then, in the nineties,"Oh yeah, I'm a virgin, I'm such a winner."... saying all this stuff about me that I'm not, meeting people that would go on to haunt me after all the C.I.A. endorsed lies I told, the double life, but my yet to go back self.  Maybe I even meet the love of my life back then and develop a heart to heart special relationship with her (or him, probably Asian) but all the while, unless my memory was erased, knowing that it is all a lie.  Seriously, this is what I really think!  If I told my doctor and nurse this, they'd think I'd have completely lost it.  I have already told them, though, about the invisible people who visit me, and usually hurt me, in my own home, in my sleep.  Maybe that's why I have had to endure so much of this hate campaign for so long, for almost ten years now, because it is to fulfill or compensate for the life I am about to live in the past from about 1991 to 2001, I guess.  Hmmm...

I was thinking before, I need to compensate again.  Since March 19th 2008 is the day I started masturbating again after I believe I was receiving a voice being high on V (an energy drink) telling me that it was okay to do so.  So it has been four years, do I need to abstain again?  I am months over due.  Doesn't it matter anymore?

Hacked, for a third time

BLOG WAS ACCESSED BY AN INTRUDER SOMETIME OVER THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS.  I'M NOT AFRAID OF YOU!

Letter to the editor

In this following letter I typed and e-mailed to the chief editor of the Bay of Plenty Times yesterday I accuse him (as he is the head representative of it) and his paper of unlawfully invading privacy, being associated with "shadowy" religions and conspiring with "higher and mightier" American (God, I just love when I can show my anti-Americanism in that way) media organisations (probably FOX), then gave three examples of how they, on the local level, have been harassing me in person.  This has been brought on by a report they did about whore houses in the area "booming" and so, of course, I make the association.  I threatened them as well because its about time I stand up for myself and not take this shit laying down.

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To the Editor,

Lets call myself Michael. My name is Michael and I am a [] resident, [] to be more exact. I don't care to read the hard copy of the Bay of Plenty Times anymore because I dreaded the news I was confronted with when it used to hit my dining room table every afternoon however my parents I believe are still subscribed to what I consider an unnecessary bearer of what is most of the time, bad news both locally and internationally.

I happen to live next door to one of your employees. I don't know her name but in the past I accused her and the Bay of Plenty Times of poking their nose where it wasn't wanted and left it at that. But, I did use other words to describe how your paper (parent company APN Media I believe?) has been interfering in my personal business that one time. I also asked her whether I could use her phone as I didn't own a phone at that time and she kindly helped me.

Today, though, in this e-mail, I am going to accuse either her, you, or your paper in general of doing the same again.

I have no evidence (that I know of) to prove to anyone that my privacy is being invaded by either her, from next door, relaying any information to your office, to perhaps you, the editor, but I have had enough already of what I know myself is this unlawful breach of my privacy by your unruly media company. In case you have forgotten already, I called myself Michael in this e-mail and that will stand. But I think you already know what my real name is, my personality, what I have done, because of your shadowy religion, Freemasonry, and your higher and mightier American media connections that not only invade privacy, but go so far to play god with peoples lives.

I would usually shrug any sign to me that told me that I needed to act like I am doing now, off. This time is an exception and I have decided to express my opposition to your advocacy of the hell on earth torture that I go through each day with your distant blessing. As I have said, I don't have any evidence to prove to anyone, such as anyone in a court of law, that laws are being broken to do with my private life but when I do get that evidence and you already know this, mark my words, I will take you and your media organisation to the cleaner and I can say that with absolute conviction.

Why earlier this year was an obvious fake and unnecessary story run about a sex offender attempting to prey on children on the other side of town, in [], other than to make some kind of point about me? Why did one of your columnists, Richard Moore, threaten to shoot me when I used to visit his business on [] [] about two or three years ago?  I make sure to steer clear of him and his business since then because of what he said and anyway, I really don't think I ever liked the guy and wanted no association with him. He also called me a fuckwit. Why did someone, from either the Bay of Plenty Times or APN Media, hunt me down in the [] [] [] to talk to me in the foodcourt about this and that?  This is what I am talking about, partly. Who do you people think you are?

I have given you three examples but you know more than you will let on in your reply, I'm sure, if you do decide to reply. You know but you will pretend that you don't.

Regards,

Michael
(My name is [] by the way)

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I've thought of sending e-mails off to the New Zealand Police as well to find out ANYTHING, about what can be done, to make life better for me.  As you know, I did send a typed letter off to the NSA/CSS FOIA Appeal Authority about two weeks ago now and am awaiting their response. 

Its all I can really do without taking the law into my own hands and causing a spat and at times, I do really want to and have to try hard to hold myself back from doing so but hey, if they just FUCKED OFF, there wouldn't be a problem.

And I have two other things to feel good about today, home holiday swapping (a ticket out of this stink town before or after a permanent move) and working from home online.

Early morning

I just thought I'd check in.  I've been having chest pains over the last few days and they grew more intense until a time after I woke up early this morning.   Am I worried? No.  Because I know that those pains shouldn't really be happening to me.  Really, wouldn't we all be better off without god? Christians, what a people full of trickery and deceit.

I mean, how do I put what has happened into a way that I can understand it?  A way that I can understand and makes sense.

Okay.  Well if you, the reader, think I am an angel then you need your head read.  Saints and angels is part of Catholicism.  Because of the abuse I have had to suffer every day for the last eight years I must be a changed man for it, aren't I?  The people here that are part of this community I live in don't care but with that said I'm not saying I want them to.  They all have the inside scoop thanks to their church groups and associated government big brother informants.  So fuck em'.  They should piss off.  See?  Thats who I am now, a person consumed with hate.  However, that hate has been passed on to me by people who still can't let go.

I can't be this, I can't do this, I want my life back.  Do I really think that I can go out there now and try and find work then be successful?  Yeah right.  I'm ruined, I could be morally bankrupt.  But because I had to be somebody, because I had to be a good man, I had to be a god.  What a fuckin' joke.  I'm sitting here laughing out loud at my words because well, I don't really know why.  I know now, its because its absurd, its stupid.  All you need to do is look at me and see that I am no god.  Do you think I am?

Well, this is how its going to go down.  I can only beg for mercy for the campaign of shock and awe to stop but I'm going to live how I want and I think I can get some fufilment from that.  I mean, I already am.  But without one thing, sex.  On July 9th and also earlier this month (I don't remember the date anymore) it was one small step for man and one giant leap for mankind.  Haha!  I saw two Asian prostitutes and in years gone by I had ruled that out completely from ever happening.  You know, just seeing a whore, a hoe, a hooker... call them what you will.  They weren't crack whores, they seemed to be clean.  But I thought, fuck it, I've done enough of protecting this world from myself and now I'm going to take the leap.  And, I did, with almost complete confidence I will add.  I plan on doing so a third time but I'm a little afraid because I think they don't like me anymore and might want to hurt me.  I might go in and there might be a big dude (ever heard of a big Asian?) waiting for me to deal some damage (presumably to my big thought read and controlled terrorising head).  I'm so dangerous dude, I can terrorise with my mind.

I'm tired of having to be someone I don't want to be but the conspiracy to murder continues... or conspiracy to change... or something.  I'm just fed up and come to think of it, I almost sexed up another Asian prostitute in 2002 when I was only sixteen.  But THAT was a setup to get me off the street and back to my parents house where I could re-connect.  Back then, I can say I never gave a fuck AT ALL because I was unaware of what I was involved in at that time.  As time went on though since the SHOCK AND AWE began because I'M AN EVIL-DOER, it just continued to unravel and still does with no end in sight. 

Hahaha!  Hilarious.

Wow...

So I've just come in from yelling obscenities at my chummy mob neighbours and I await the retaliation, they always do.  Really, who do they think they are?  They think this country is theirs, they think this world is theirs and they will do whatever it takes to make it so.  The original and true mobsters and even those today of a city called New York City, just think life is a game.  That thinking will unfortunately for them never change. 

They need to be put in their place along with the rich and powerful Jews of this world, the President of the United States, the C.I.A., the N.S.A.... hell, the whole United States government and their criminal associates who think they can meddle in the affairs of people like myself just willy nilly.  Susan Milne (not your real name, I'm sure), Paul Holmes, Rupert Murdoch... all three of them part of a media wing of a criminal empire that have to be dealt to seriously.  Rupert Murdoch needs to be thrown in jail, forget the key.  Paul Holmes the same.  But also who I am about to accuse as a female paedophile, Susan Milne.  You should all just fuck off, make my life easier and let me do what I should be doing instead of encouraging me to get caught up in all of this bullshit.  Because that's what it is, bullshit.  Complete and utter shit.  Fuck you all.

No, I'm not mad about what you think I should probably be mad about, I'm not.  There are some of you reading who will already know what that is I have been thinking of because you are all just so fuckin' high and mighty with your godly power.  Jesus, just fuck off and leave me alone, I'm not bothering anyone. 

I counted seven times yesterday in about a time span of about over half an hour that significant things happened during that time when I was out of my house...

I HOPE YOU ALL DIE FUCKIN' HORRIBLE SLOW DEATHS AND I HOPE WHEN I'M GONE, THAT WILL HAPPEN AS PAYBACK FOR WHAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH BY THE HAND OF THESE RICH AND POWERFUL ASSHOLES!  NO, NOT JUST ANYBODY.  THEM.  MEDIA PEOPLE LIKE SUSAN MILNE, PEOPLE LIKE PAUL HOLMES, PEOPLE LIKE RUPERT MURDOCH.  ALL.  FUCKIN'.  PAY.  WITH THEIR LIVES.  THEY SHOULD OWE ME MILLIONS... MILLIONS OF DOLLARS THAT COULD BE OWED TO ME AFTER A GUILTY RULING IN A COURT OF LAW FOR THE CRIMES THEY HAVE COMMITTED AND PLUS, NEED TO BE PUNISHED FOR ILLEGAL INVASION OF PRIVACY, TORTURE AND CONSPIRACY TO MURDER BY EITHER THEM OR THEIR CRIMINAL ASSOCIATES.

I am going to make sure that this between me and you Mr. Holmes, yes YOU, Mr. Holmes, is far from over.  You should have not got involved here, sir.  You have the police in your pocket and the media attention you constantly egg on with the power of your cheque book amounts to propaganda of my life.  You are a mad man and the hate you genuinely, it is infectious.  Just go away.